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Ending Marks A Beginning

2008-07-16T20:14:00.004+08:00

Dearest Reader,

I have decided to move to a better place. I have nothing against Blogspot. It's just that I have found a better place and I need a change. So, mark the new address!

http://hushmeadow.wordpress.com/

Hope to see you there!

My Work

2008-07-15T20:58:00.003+08:00

This is my last 3 weeks doing internship. Honestly, at first, I didn't like my job. I was scared because people there are so smart. Of course la, if not how to work in an actuarial firm. Furthermore, I am not familiar with what I was doing and I didn't really enjoy working. But, as time goes by, I got more and more interested in my work, and now, I am starting to feel the pressure from my work. Not bad pressure, but GOOD pressure. I am learning so much that at times, I think my brain cannot support all and going to burst.

My work is very flexible because it is a consultant firm. Today I might be doing this job and a few days later, I might be doing another job. I never complained because this is a very good chance to learn stuff that might be very useful for my future career. But, at times my job can be tough because what I am doing was not learnt in class but have to experience it outside the classroom. And thus, I have to constantly do research from net. If cannot, have to kacau my colleagues and ask them. Sometimes, I think they got fed up of me because I ask too many questions. But luckily, they never show it on their faces.

I can't wait for my internship to end, because this means that I don't have to wake up early and go to office. At the same time, I don't want my internship to end this fast, this signals that I have to go back to US and continue my new semester. You see, I am a very contradicting person. I don't want it, but I still hope for it.

V is for Victory

2008-07-14T21:48:00.002+08:00

Song of the Day - No Air by Chris Brown & Jordin Sparks(this song has been on my playlist for a long time, love it!)

Sunday is supposed to be my lovely and peaceful resting day. Sunday is supposed to be the 'homework' day. But, my lovely sister dragged me to watch Cheer 2008 with her. What to do? My mummy won't let my sis go if I don't go along. Haih.

So, reluctanty, I followed her. It was held in Stadium Putra, Bukit Jalil like last year. Ooh, I went last year too. We reached there around 1.30pm. Then we sat while waiting for the event to start at 2pm. While waiting, we saw groups and groups of supporters from different schools shouting their lungs out. It was so lively in the stadium.

Then the event started at 2pm. We saw 15 teams performing, including Dynamitez, Xavier, Titans and of course, the last team to perform on that day was Shirtliff from my former high school, SMK Seri Bintang Utara. They were all awesome. We really couldn't tell who's going to be the champion.

Then, about 4.30pm, the results were announced. When Shirtliff heard that they got Best Showmanship Award, everyone from the Shirtliff area were so quiet, because from what we knew, no team won got Best Showmanship emerged as the champion. We were disappointed. Then several more awards were presented. When it comes to Silkygirl Merit Award, Shirtliff were being announced as the winner, again. Seems like the hope of becoming champion was getting thinner and thinner. Finally, the moment we have been waiting for, the announcement of the Top 3. Second runner-up goes to Stunnerz All-Boys, first runner-up was Dynamitez from DJ. All of us became very very quiet because this means Shirtliff might have a chance. Then, Jien announced the winner of Cheer 2008 is SM Seri... All of us were like, "Oh no!" Suddenly, he shouted Shirtliff from SMK Seri Bintang Utara, all of us went crazy. You can hear everyone who supports Shirtliff screaming and jumping up and down. This has never happened in history before, where the champion bagged another 2 more titles. Shirtliff truly made it into the history!

That ends my Sunday. I went back with a headache and I did not finish my homework. But, it was worth it because I feel great that Shirtliff actually won and I can tell people that was my former high school team! Congratulations to Shirtliff!

我的选择

2008-07-12T22:25:00.002+08:00

选择题: 若给你选，你宁愿他爱你比你爱他多，还是你爱他比他爱你多？

如果你问我这个问题，我会很自私，选择我宁愿他爱我比我爱他多。说真的，我觉得自己蛮自私。可是，我也是个女生，也需要别人关心，也需要别人疼我。偷偷跟你说个秘密，我从来没谈过恋爱。我自己也没真正去找过，每次总对自己说，随缘吧。可是，我也怕这身中，没有试过谈恋爱的滋味，那不是太可惜吗？我想，如果我找到一个适合自己的，然后是我冲动的告白，那个人会珍惜我吗？相反的，如果我不主动，我会找的一个吗？我不会要求很多，只想要一个对我好，品德好，对我认真，就足够了。你说，我该怎样做呢？

我在以上所说的，只是我有时候会想的，我最想要的就是完成我的学业，然后找一份我喜欢的工作。其他的事，在打算吧！

I am Back!

2008-07-09T23:16:00.002+08:00

Muahaha, I am back.

Okay okay, I know I have abandoned my blog for a very very long time, but I don't feel like blogging ma.

Ooh yea, I am meeting my new baby very soon. Hehe. =D

Failure

2008-02-29T16:09:00.002+08:00

Hmmmmm, somehow I am immune to failure.

Failure doesn't mean as much as it was anymore. I am getting scared. I have lost my will to strive for better things.

All I need is a miracle and I am praying every single moment. *switch on emo-mode*

It's Snowing!

2007-11-26T10:16:00.001+08:00

OK. So, it's snowing. I was pretty excited when I first saw it coming. Apart from it, nothing else more to say. In fact, I don't really like snow, if you ever ask me. It's very slippery and makes it hard to walk.

So I am money concerned. I mean, who is not concerned about money $$$$$$$$$$? I am very concerned when it comes to money and when I think something is not right, I will just shoot it out. It's only for money. But when it comes to other things, I will just keep my mouth shut.

I just realized I have made many stupid mistakes that lead people to dislike me. If only I know what makes them dislike me so much? In the mean time, I guess I have to live with it and just pretend that I don't know people dislike me!

Solemnly signing out,
Hushy

外国的月亮是否特别圆？

2007-10-23T07:29:00.000+08:00

外国的月亮是否特别圆？

这问题，我在祖国已经想过了好几次。结果，在我来到美国才知道。原来这里的月亮虽然比较圆，可是却能看不能碰。而且，这里也不能与家人赏月。却只能一个人抬头望天空，靠记忆与想象力，才能感觉到与家人的温暖。

我好怀念我的家呀！可是，我却没后悔过。我只能默默地祈祷，祈祷时间快点地过。让我在与家人一再重逢吧！

-完毕-

MahJong

2007-10-15T14:26:00.000+08:00

Guess what I learnt today?

I can't believe it? I actually learnt to play mahjong!!!

OMG, and I am so addicted! :p

Cham lor, I am supposed to study leh. But I am thinking about mahjong right now. >.<

Have a good night. =D

Of Test, Assignments and Fall Break

2007-10-10T13:17:00.000+08:00

Gahhhh, I am having STATS132 test tomorrow, and yet, I have the mood to blog here. Come closer, and I will tell you a secret. Closer. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO STATS132. IT'S SO CONFUSING THAT I NEED TO DIG A HOLE AND BURY MY HEAD INSIDE. Phewww, that was so much better. I never felt so lost in a class before. Even back in Malaysia, when I don't understand things, I always find ways to make myself understand. I am needing a miracle tomorrow if I want to score in STATS132. And the best part is, it's open book and open notes test, which sort of hint that the test is going to be frigging tough. >.<

After the test tomorrow, I will have 2 assignments to hand in, which is ACTS140 and FIN101. I did half of ACTS140 and never touch on FIN101. Am I dead or what? If I am granted 3 wishes, my wishes wil be, I need more time, I need more time and I STILL NEED MORE TIME!

What got me moving this whole week is the much anticipated Fall Break, which starts on Oct 13 to Oct 16. But for business students, it is actually starting on the 12th instead of 13th since business school is closed on Friday. Woohoo~ 5 days break, you must be thinking I am going to enjoy to the max. But no, I am supposed to work in Bell Center at least 4 hours a day. But, working in Bell Center is not that bad at all, considering most of the shift that I signed up for is study shift. Lucky me. =D

Alright, that's all for now. I will update more if I have more interesting stuff to tell. If you think that this blog is full of boring stuff, I am so sorry. I can't think of anything better to write. After all, my life is that dull. But, I LIKE MY LIFE!!!

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Not So Public Anymore

2007-10-04T01:43:00.000+08:00

My blog is no longer public anymore. It can only be viewed by those that I have invited. Whether my invitation are accepted or not, it is their decision.

I don't know why I privatized my blog. It is like, suddenly I have this thought in my mind while I was sleeping one day. I just don't like when random people reads my blog. Then you may ask, then why do you want a blog for? The reason I have a blog is because I want to shout out all my happiness, problems, frustrations, yaya yada, ladida ladida...at a place, a secluded place that I trust. And my blog is the best place. Only friends I trust can view my blog. How nice right?

From now on, whenever I am happy or sad, delighted or frustrated, the first thing I'll do is to update this blog. So people can share my happiness and some not-so-happy stuff. And don't say I didn't warn you about some emo stuff. Well, I hope I won't have emo stuff to talk about because it's bad. And I hate it when I have to ruin you day.

Until then, I bid you farewell, my beloved readers. I really appreciate it when you accepted my invitation. And I am more delighted when you read my blog. THANK YOU!!! =D

Late for Work

2007-09-28T11:27:00.000+08:00

Alamak, I was late for work, for the first time...

My manager was quite unhappy, and of course, I am to be blamed >.<

Oh yea, I was late for work today because of Actuarial Evening, which is one of the reason I never regretted enrolling in Drake. Actuarial Evening is an internship and full-time recruitment program specially for Drake students. Of course, getting an internship or full-time job here is very competitive. But, it's a very good learning experience.

Ooh ooh, I got my free financial calculator already. Thanks to CIGNA! The financial calculator, BA II Plus will cost RM150 and I got it for free!!! =D

Tear Me Apart

2007-09-25T12:15:00.000+08:00

I wonder have you ever kept all your problems to yourself?

And your problems keep bulding and building until they reach the peak.

Something within you just snap.

You do something out of your norm.

For me, I just cried and cried so badly, until my sob almost tear me apart. I just cried and cried to sleep.

It was embarassing of course, but this is just me, who cry her problems away.

Piling Up

2007-09-22T06:32:00.000+08:00

Good new is, I have gotten myself a job. I am working as a monitor in Bell Center. Not too bad, consider I am working only a few hours per week. So there is extra pocket money for me to ~~spend~~ save. And the coordinator, Kate is her name, is a super nice person. =D

Bad new is, my work is piling up like nobody's business. I have 2 tests next week, Finance and Marketing. I have never really liked this 2 subs. Finance is still OK, but Marketing, the lecturer is a nice man, with thick British accent, but he is just plain boring. I slept a few times in his class. I wonder if anyone saw that.

I am taking P paper this November. I have not started anything yet. I can hear the P manual calling me and I am ignoring it! Goshhh, I am useless...

crazy weather

2007-09-18T12:53:00.000+08:00

Gahhhhh...

Weather in Des Moines is really unpredictable.

It was really cold yesterday. But, but, it was so hot during the day today!!!

Silly me who wore a sweater and was sweating under it. And I had to to walk to US Bank, which is 6 streets away.

Crazy weather.

Gahhhhh...>.<

Drake Part 2

2007-08-25T20:38:00.000+08:00

this is my 6th day in Drake.

orientation was held on wednesday. it was fun. i got to know some other international students better, thanks to the games. there were a lot of international students, around 100 of us. and 38 are from malaysia. the best part is, 99% malaysians are doind actuarial science, which is what i am doing also. at times, part of me wanted to change major. but, there are too many things to consider if i want to do so. i decided to stick with what i am doing right now, and put a little more effort in it. gahhhh, hope it works.

after orientation, we had some welcome weekend activities. honestly, i skipped a lot of the activities because i stayed in my room, a lot. but i did go for some of the activities and it was fun. i want to elaborate more of this, but sadly i did not have any pictures.

actually, des moines is a very quiet and peaceful place, as well as a boring place. it is hard to find some entertainment in des moines. most of the time, i had to rely on my friend who lives nearby to give us a lift to places. we went to places like walmart(super big and quite cheap), jordan creek(i think the nicest shopping complex in iowa. i bought an ipod there and nearly, a nike running shoe) and hyvee(i went yesterday to buy some chicken and vege to make curry chicken and ginseng chicken soup, and thank god, it turned out well. of course, i wasn't the chef but at least, i helped in the rice and some cutting job. damn proud wehy. =D).

i didn't take much pictures but luckily, rachel did. i will just ask her for some nice pictures that she took around des moines later. hehehe, so stay tune...

Destination : Drake University, Des Moines, Iowa, US(Part 1)

2007-08-21T21:45:00.000+08:00

i am in Drake University, Des Moines(pronouce as the-moi, i think this is French gua), Iowa already. =D

life here is very different. imagine in kl, you can see malays, chinese and indians everywhere. here in des moines, you can seldom see them. if yes, i can see chinese students, some indians students and very few malay students. at times, i thought i am in an alien planet or what.

the weather here is quite unpredictable. in the morning, it can be very windy. in the afternoon, it is always hot and a little humid. and it just rained yesterday at night. crazy weather, right? still, i can't wait for fall and winter, eventhough some seniors told be they hated winter so much. but, at least i can have something to hope for.

ok la, that's all for part 1. i shall save some interesting stories for part 2. i will try to take some beautiful pictures of Drake and post it here later. take care. =D

p.s. i miss my family and friends so much.

Farewell

2007-08-18T22:49:00.000+08:00

to my dearest readers,

yupe, i am leaving tomorrow morning. i am not going to be long-winded this time. =D

i just want to wish all of you, including my family, friends and you, my readers all the best. i am sure we will of course meet again someday.

to my better future, i say farewell and good day!!! =D

sincerely,
caroline

To You

2007-08-15T21:55:00.000+08:00

To my dearest friend Elle,
There are thing I would like to tell,
Remember to ring my cell,
To you I say farewell.

To my dearest friend Lynda,
Who is going to Indiana,
Remember to miss me la =D,
To you I say au revoir.

I just sent them off today. Pretty emo. But the thing is, we didn't cry. Because we know, someday and somewhere in US, we are going to meet again. Goodbye, friends! =D

At This Moment

2007-08-14T13:44:00.000+08:00

Listening to songs,
Staring at the wall.
I saw you,
Smiling back at me.

Lying on bed,
Reading a book.
I heard you,
Whispering in my ears.

Sipping coffee,
Looking out of the window.
I saw rain,
Pouring down like tears in my eyes.

Looking back at those days,
Thinking of you.
I said to myself,
Will you ever think of me too?

*This post is for entertainment purposes only. =D

what have i done?

2007-08-12T10:49:00.000+08:00

it all started well today.

i only said, "i don't want to sit here,". then, my mother stopped talking to me and scolded me. she said i am being very unconcerned.

this is how i am going to spend my last sunday in msia. great. my mum is not talking to me. double greatness. my heart hurts like hell.

what have i done?

EXAM DAY 2 + 3

2007-08-10T21:11:00.000+08:00

ok la, i promised to update yesterday, but i was just too lazy. pai seh la.

i had my art paper yesterday. it was just ok. i was actually guessing my way through the mcq questions and crapping all the way in the essay. so i am actually aiming for an A- in art. i will be jumping in happiness if i score an A. if not, i hope at least for an A-.

today, i had my macroecons paper. macroecons was terrible. bad MCQs, terrible short questions but they totally killed me in essay. essay was 30 marks. i think i am going to get 5/30. yeah, it was that bad. so, i am just going to aim for a B in macroecons.

since this is the end of my finals, i am going to predict my grades for this semester. so here goes:
1) public speaking - A-
2) statistics - A-
3) art - A-
4) macroecons - B

gahhhhh, no A this semester. there goes my last finals in INTI! >.<

EXAM DAY 1

2007-08-08T21:18:00.000+08:00

dearest readers,

yupe, my finals has started today.

i did 2 of my papers today. 2 more to go. today's papers is not easy at all. i had a tough time during my stats paper. and tougher time in my public speaking paper. i have to admit la, i didn't study that much. but, stats paper was not as easy as what my lecturer had told me. kena tipu. >.<

ok la, i should study for my art paper tomorrow. art is never my cup of tea, but for the sake of my gpa, i have to do it! please pray for me. =D

happieeeeee

2007-08-06T00:29:00.000+08:00

weeee, i am just so happy...

nahh, i am not going to write the reasons behind my happiness. i am just too lazy. plus, i am going to bed soon. i will try to write more next time.

13 more days to go and i am still packing. not much time left, yet i want to enjoy my stay in malaysia to the fullest. i want to eat, eat, EAT!(no wonder i am so fat! >.<)

till we meet again...

running away!

2007-08-03T22:34:00.001+08:00

i hate running away from problems, but i am doing it, all the times. call me a coward, but at times, i just don't know how to face people and problems, especially when they are giving me too much pressure. i don't like it!

Bye Bye, Ade!!!

2007-08-01T23:48:00.000+08:00

I guess Ade should be in US by now.

Sadly, I didn't send her off. I didn't see her in the morning yesterda, which was what I planned much earlier. But, I AM GOING TO SEE HER SOON IN US!!! And Kansas is just next to Iowa. I think around 2 hours drive can reach gua. =D Budak Ade, jaga baik-baik yea. I will come to see you soon in US!

piece of dead meat

2007-07-25T00:35:00.000+08:00

i am super tired.

i want to sleep and sleep and sleep like pig.

discover and aup ball were over.

i felt so relief.

a few more assignments and tests and quizzes to go.

i have impromptu speech on thursday, nervous.

less than a month till the day i am leaving malaysia.

end.

goodbye iec

2007-07-16T23:18:00.000+08:00

i can't believe that today is the last day of iec. iec has offiicially stepped down and the intima room nows belong to 32nd intima excos.

i have not been so attached to a club/society before. furthermore, iec is not just any ordinary club/society. it is actually called the independent election commission to help in assisting the election of the 32nd excos. and mr. tan wei cai was the chairperson of 32nd iec.

i had a lot of fun in iec. not to mention, i had a lot of bad times in iec too. but, i think i will remember those good times we had in iec the most, especially wei cai's lameness. =D

i actually got to know some members better. iec changed my view towards some members who gave me bad first impression. after knowing them, i learnt that i can't really judge a book by its cover.

iec is ending after today. i am actually proud to say that i was an ex-iec member. goodbye 32nd iec! =(

shoot me or kill myself

2007-07-15T23:10:00.000+08:00

i am so dead if i am unable to sell all aup ball tickets within these 4 days. so someone just kill me now because i am quite sure i won't be able to do it. seriously, i will take the responsibility on my shoulder and i will be the one to be blamed. that's so not funny.

the thing is, we really can't trust one's word, especially if one says one will get things done soon or trust one to do things. i am not trying to pinpoint anyone here. i am just trying to tell the fact.

my team and i started off well, with huge amount of bookings and with promises that sounded so good. when some started to ffk, things are not that nice anymore. some started to show me apologetic look with a million of apologies(exegerating again), which i think i still can accept. some didn't even tell me and acted cool, wth. some didn't even remember their promises, double wth. i am still being extremely patient.

my team and i then busied ourselves with other stuff, as we not only have one task. yupe, we remember taking the responsibility and we tried not to break our promises. in the end, we managed to come out with something different. see, we remember our promises. it is not that hard. it just needs a little of our heart, passion, time and commitment, which i am sure most people can offer. can you?

i still remember being in iec,when i almost met dead end when looking for candidates. it was iec members who helped me through the obstacles by promoting and finding candidates too. how i wish the same thing will happen here. i just need a miracle, a miracle to sell off all tickets!

sorry if i sounded a bit offensive, but i was just telling the truth. i might be the nice person you think i am. and at times, i think i am nice too. but i am just so annoyed now, with all these excuses. just put yourself in my situation, can you still smile your huge smile and be nice to everyone? the answer is no, i am positively 100% sure. so, i can't be nice anymore! and the best part is, i don't even care!

i can't believe i sounded so frustrated in here. i need a break. i need a shoulder to cry on. i need to pray for a miracle. i need a place to release the inner me. i need...YOU, my dearest friends!!! *hearts breaking into million pieces and sobbing inside.*

leaving

2007-07-15T20:11:00.000+08:00

mum and dad have been very patient with me nowadays. i made a huge mistake on friday by not telling dad something important. my dad ended up calling me 7 times without me realizing. you must be thinking i am such a bad daughter. on the contrary, i have been trying very very hard to be a a good one. it just that at times when i do work, i am really into it and have no room for other things. in the end, my dad just let me off without having me giving any explanation.

i know my mum and dad are really nice to me mainly because i am leaving soon. the thought of leaving them, my family my friends always bring tears to my eyes.

to imagine myself in a land few thousand miles away from my hometown here in malaysia, i can feel the loneliness now. of course, i have a bunch of friends over there. but things will be so different there than what i thought it will be. yesterday, as i was chatting with one of my friends, this friend of mine asked me what do expect in america? i can barely answer the question. i just said i don't know what to expect. please tell me, what can i expect in the stranger land?

dearest readers,

please appreciate what you have. do things like there is no tomorrow, but only today, as today is present, a gift you must really appreciate because there is no 2 similiar todays.

i shall bid you farewell and good night.

13th the friday

2007-07-14T18:46:00.000+08:00

ok, i know it's supposed to be friday the 13th. just trying to make things more interesting here.

instead of saying lemony's snicket's a series of unfortunate events, i should change it to friday the 13th's a series of unfortunate events.

so many things happened in just one day. it feels like i just went through 1 week. just exegerating.

i don't feel like blogging now. if you want to know more, read her and her blogs.

so long, farewell, dearest readers.

busy week ahead

2007-07-06T22:24:00.000+08:00

dear readers,

sorry for the lack of entries. i was busy with some of the events. and and discover is in 2 more weeks time!

i will not be updating much starting from tomorrow until the end of the semester. for your information, i have a public speaking speech next monday. hmmmm, i won't disclose the topic for my speech until next monday. you just have to wait and see. =D and i have my stats test 2 next wed. i am so not prepared. so voila, there goes my weekend. =(

is it very weird nowdays for not having a bf? because when i told people that i don't have one and not looking for one, they didn't believe it. more outrageously, some even guessed that i am a les. aiyor, which part of me tells you that i am les la? except the part that i am big and fat and ugly(i just have to add this part in =D), every milimetre of me tells you that i am straight. yesh, and i am seriously telling you that i am STRAIGHT, 101%! oh gawd, i cannot believe that people actually think that i am les. i ought to get a bf soon(nahhh, just joking, too troublesome). gahhhhhhhhhhhh...

good night people and until we meet again...

i got room in drake!

2007-07-02T23:28:00.000+08:00

beloved readers,

i just got my room and roommate assignment! i never thought i will know until mid july. but yeah, i am excited.

well, according to blueView(sounds pretty high tech, huh? but quite hard to navigate for a beginner like me. yeah, call me noob if you want to. >.<), i got a room in GK(according to some seniors, gk is one of the best dorm) and guess who's my roomies? hahahahhahah, non other than one of the kaki's, ms. rachel yong and a girl from ipoh. the best part is, we are all from malaysia. =D

i am floating in the air right now. reasons being, i opted for gk as my first choice and i got it. and i chose rachel to be my roomie. and i got it too. can't wait to tell rachel tomorrow. weeeeeeeee...

on the other hand, volleyball training is cancelled tomorrow and on the following tuesday due to some events. i am most looking forward to tuesday every week because of volleyball. and for 2 weeks, i have nothing to anticipate anymore. that's sad...

Lee Hom - Luo Ye Gui Gen MV

2007-06-30T20:38:00.000+08:00

i just watched lee hom's new mv, 'luo ye gui gen'(falling leaves return to root). so emo wehy, want to cry already. >.<

enjoy the clip yea. =D

just a random tag

2007-06-29T18:01:00.000+08:00

*paiseh la, never thought of translating the questions. so here is an editted version, hope to make things clear and no more confusions. =D

saw this in jocelyn's blog. decided to give it a try. here's the outcome, pretty hilarious, i tell you...

TAG
1. 把 music player 放在 shuffle mode. (put your mp3 player in in shuffle mode.)
2. 在每一个问题, 安 forward 来得不同的歌曲. (for each question, press 'next' or 'forward' to get the next song.)
3. 用歌名来回答问题, 虽然有时会没道理, 可是别偷鸡摸狗噢! (use the song to answer each question. though ridiculous at time, no cheating! =D)
4. 有了答案, 就给自己的意见, 关于歌名与问题的搭配. (write down your own thoughts according to the question and song's title.)
5. Tag 五个朋友. (and lastly, tag 5 friends.)

今天是怎样的心情? (How's your feeling today?)
Stacie Orrico - I'm Not Missing You
(I am missing everyone everyday. >.<)

在这生命里, 你会飞的远吗? (In life, will you soar?)
Lee Hom - Di Yi Ge Qing Cheng (First Dawn)
(Huh? Only can fly in the dawn)

你的朋友怎么样看待你? (What do your friends think of you?)
Courtney J - Can't Behave
(I am innocent)

你会结婚吗? (Will you marry?)
Jack Johnson - Constellations
(Mysterious-nyer)

你的最好朋友的主题曲是什么? (What's your best friend's theme song?)
Lee Hom - Yi Shou Jian Dan De Ge (A Simple Song)
(Yea, our theme song is just a simple song)

你生命的故事是什么? (What the story of your life?)
Anson Hu - Wo De Wei Lai Bu Shi Meng (My Future Is Not A Dream)
(Not a dream? Which means my dream will come true? =D)

你的高中是怎么样过的? (How's your high school?)
Jesse McCartney - Beautiful Soul
(True, I met a lot of beautiful souls)

在生命中, 你是怎么样往前走? (In life, how do you move forward?)
Ace Young - Butterflies
(Errrr, which mean I fly?)

你的朋友们最好的优点是什么? (What's your friends' best quality?)
Fort Minor - Where'd You Go
(Tough, tough...)

这周末会怎样? (How's your weekend?)
Peter Caleigh - Reach
(Yupe, I need to reach somewhere this weekend)

说说你的公公和婆婆 (Tell us a little about your grandparents.)
John Denver - Today
(*Cries*)

你的生活过得怎样? (How's your life?)
Lee Hom - Zai Mei Bian
(Wahh, so complicated meh?)

在你的葬礼, 他们会播放什么歌? (What song will they play in your funeral?)
Juanes - Para Tu Amor
(Aiyor, so sad)

世界怎么看待你呢? (How does the world see you?)
Frankie J - More Than Words
(Haih, no need to say anything la)

你会有个快乐的生活吗? (Will you have a happy life ahead?)
James Blunt - Cry
(OMG, I must have a sad life ahead >.<)

你的朋友们真的是怎样看待你的呢? (Your friends see you as...)
Lee Hom - Wei Yi
(Flattered kau-kau =D)

有人暗暗的为你着迷吗? (Any secret admirer?)
Jewel - I Love You Always Forever
(Wahhh, scarry...)

你是怎样让自己更快乐的? (How do you make yourself happy?)
Greenday - Wake Me Up When September Ends
(Huh? Will be happy if wake up when september ends?)

你应该在你的生活中做些什么? (What should you do in life?)
Ferhad - Katakan Saja
(Hmmm, cannot la, later people say that I have more saliva than tea)

你会有孩子吗? (Any kids in the future?)
James Blunt - You're Beautiful
(Errrr, my children will be beautiful?)

你应该在那一首歌跳钢管舞呢? (Which song should you pole dance?)
Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On
(Gahhhh, so slow, how to dance?)

你妈妈怎么看待你呢? (Your mum sees you as...)
Jasan Mraz - Geek In The Pink
(Mum will not say that I'm a geek!)

你的生活中敌人的主题曲? (Your rival's theme song)
Teddy Geiger - Rockin' Right Here
(Errr, too much, right)

你的人品格是如何的呢? (Your personal quality?)
Lee Hom - JULIA
(Sadly, my name is Caroline and not Julia! >.<)

你的婚礼会播放什么歌曲? (What song should be played in your wedding?)
Lin Jun Jie - Sa Rang Hae Yo
(Ahhhhh, nice nice...)

你的未来的伴侣会是怎样的呢? (How's your future soul mate?)
High School Musical - What I've Been Looking For
(Hopefully, he is what I've been looking for =D)

幸福的定义是什么? (What's the happiness?)
Lee Hom - Kiss Goodbye
(What? Happiness is kiss goodbye? Don't want!)

TAG : Michelle, Jaclyn, and I don't know who else read my bloggie.

2007-06-29T00:18:00.000+08:00

good morning, dearest readers!

i have macro-econs test 10 hours later. gahhhhh >.<

CALVIN CHONG KAI MUN! take me to 'luo ye gui gen' mtv world premiere tomorrow! i know you are not reading this, but still. so unfair, this lucky dude won the pass. i don't care, must take me.

someone just reminded me of some old, sad story yesterday. yeah, i am now in a 'saddy' mode. i predicted a long, sad day ahead.

lee hom's new song doesn't help too. i like the lyrics and the feel. but the melody sounded so 'kesian'. mum heard the song. she too felt that it is too 'cai leong'. and she actually suggested to bring over to us. whenever i think of home, i can just listen to that song and have a good cry. i guess my mum and sis will miss me the most when i leave to us later.

so yeah, enough of my pointless ramblings. i should end here. i bid you, my readers a good day ahead. keep your fingers cross for my test, will you? i just need to a good sleep now. till next time...

more on cheer 2007!!!

2007-06-26T23:37:00.000+08:00

finally, icsj closed volleyball tournament is over! and the winner is....*drum roll*HUI-YOH! banyak banyak tahniah.

anyway, this post is specially for lamb. =D

the clip below is shirtliff whole routine.

and here is a clip of dynamitez, cheer 2007 champion routine.

and finally, here is a clip of my favourite of that day, CHARM ALL STARS!!! enjoy...

shirtliff rocks! =D

2007-06-25T20:36:00.000+08:00

yay yay! SHIRTLIFF IS RUNNER-UP!

i went to stadium putra to watch cheer 2007 yesterday. i didn't get to see the earlier part because i went there just to catch a glimpse of shirtliff performing. and they were superb, at least that's what i think. i salute them kau kau, because all of them can perform 'split', must be a torturing during the process. >.<

anyway, i met wai fon, haz and shereen there. but i couldn't stay long and have a nice chat with them. gahhhh, they were sitting at the participatants' area, while I was at the 'oh-so-nice-view' spectator area. =( i wanted to go inside the participants' area but it was blocked. double =( anyway, i was so glad to finally see wai fon there! it's ages since i last met her and went kai-kai with her. triple =(

no pictures, but i have a brief clip lousily taken by me. :) the video was taken at the beginning of the shirtliff's routine, which was the 'basket toss'. enjoy. =D

cheer 2007

2007-06-24T12:34:00.000+08:00

cham lor, i am going out today, again! >.< SHIRTLIFF is in the top 15. plus plus, SHIRTLIFF is represented by COOKE this year. yesh yesh, i was from COOKE, okay? =D

and michelle's sister's team B*Starz made it into the top 15 too. =D

ok, have to go now. i sincerely hope shirtliff will do well this year! all the best!

*have you got that spirit? yeah man!
let me see it in your arms! oo ahh, oo ahh ahh! GO SHIRTLIFF!!!*

me cham lor!

2007-06-23T22:25:00.000+08:00

cham lor, cham lor.

i am supposed to study today. but, i spent the whole day watching lee hom's dvd and i am hooked! thanks to my beloved sister. >.<

please tell me what to do la. econs mid-term on next friday. i need to buck up in econs because i did badly in the previous test. help!!!

anyway, lee hom's album will be released soon. i heard the latest song, damn chun! can't wait! =D

k-session

2007-06-23T10:37:00.000+08:00

beloved readers,

thanks to a karaoke session yesterday, i am voice-less now.

honestly, i don't have a nice voice. pity those who went yesterday, especially the 'kaki's. many many sorrys.

love,
hushy

college events

2007-06-20T21:45:00.000+08:00

as i am leaving the college soon, i found out that i have gained much experience in college.

i never regret joining any college event. for the past 1 year, i was invoved in orientation day, orientation night, inti 20th anniversary, college day, council camp, intima week and c-raze II. and i certainly never regret for being a part of intima council.

looking back at pictures, i realize i will definitely miss inti college very much. of course, i can come back during summer. but i guess at that point, things will change and i will definitely change(for better or for worse, i hope i won't change much).

here are some pictures taken during college events that will occupy special place in my memory.

(l-r)michelle, me, rachel, lynda during college day.

intima councils from aup.

needless to say, the pictures tell everything. i was having a lot of fun and those memories will be cherished forever! =D

icsj closed volleyball tournament

2007-06-18T22:45:00.000+08:00

beloved readers,

my arm muscle is still aching due to badminton game on saturday. and i didn't take my public speaking test today. thanks to ms kalai for being so understanding. but i had stats test today. i guess it was okay. well, i couldn't say much until i get back my result. =D

anyway, back to today's topic, volleyball tournament. too bad i didn't take any pictures, if not i can upload it. ahhh, nevermind, there's still tomorrow's match. hehe...

p/s icsj students are really creative when it comes to names. there were 5 teams today and all have very unique names. first we have jon lam's team names 'volleyball'(ok la, considering this is a volleyball match), jill's group named 'noob'(errrrr, i guess noob means newbie, no?), wei hong no. 2's team named 'superstar'(must be influenced by the talent show 'superstar'), kiu fong's team named 'the pukekos'(well, according to sonia, one of kiu fong's teammates, pukekos is a native australian bird) and lastly, we have wei hong no.1's group named 'hui-yoh'(yupe, hui-yoh, not fui-yoh). confused? i promise pictures will soon follow.

till we meet again...

Inter-AUP part 1

2007-06-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

dearest reader,

you cannot imagine the tiredness i feel right now as the result of inter-AUP challenge yesterday. though tired, i had a lot of fun. in fact, i think everyone from icsj had fun. i signed as a helper, but i ended up playing badminton with my friends. i am super lousy in badminton, gah. no no, i think i am super lousy in sports. >.<

anyway, i have to end here due to 2 tests tomorrow. yupe, again, i need to study. that's aup life, 90% studying and 10% relaxing. wish me good luck! =D

to be continued...

discover official blog

2007-06-14T22:38:00.000+08:00

dearest readers,

the Discover U.S. Education - KL '07 Official Blog is now up.

i will be blogging there too, occasionally. =D

2007-06-11T23:20:00.001+08:00

i did badly for econs test! >.<

how la? i dun feel like studying now... =(

what have i done?

2007-06-08T00:55:00.000+08:00

many always say that last semester is supposed to be most relaxing of all. hah, i wish...

informative speech script due next monday. fuh...

art test next monday. great...

i guess i am the one to be blamed. i sendiri cari pasal. i wish i have more time for family and friends since i am leaving soon. but, i chose to work on some events instead of free-ing my time. i don't regret taking up iec or discover or aup ball or volleyball tournament. instead, i regretted to work on iec AND discover AND aup ball AND volleyball tournament. yeah, i hope you get my point...

well, i guess there is little i could do now. all is left is me putting 100% in each and every event. i do hope that things will come out nice and smooth. i am still keeping my fingers cross...

i know some of you are bored as you are reading the entries that dwell on the same thing over and over again. i just need a channel a release all the inner voices of mine. or else, i might go CRAZY! the blog is definitely the channel. the blog is a good 'friend' who can take all but ask for nothing in return. long live the blog...=D

emo post

2007-06-06T18:05:00.000+08:00

why oh why? why am i so blind?

you know, i made a major mistake today. oh wait, no. i actually made it since a few days ago. i can only pray that the mistake did not lead to some unwanted consequences. >.<

i don't know la. i think i am not capable enough to hold any post. currently, i am holding a few posts. but, i did not do my part well in those posts. reasons are, i am not good enough and i don't have enought time.

compared to my past experience, i have definitely grown and learnt a lot during these years. but still not good enough. and the reason i survived through the past was because of my dearests friends. during high school, i am lucky enough to have friends like wai fon, chung, ade and ai-lynn(though i don't really know ai-lynn that well until form 5 =D). they seriously helped me a lot whenever i need them. and now, i have some 'kaki's like michelle, rachel and lynda. they were always the one who helped me when i ran out of ideas or when i broke down. therefore, i would like to take this opportunity to express my gratitude to these people. =D

today is supposed to be a good day. but then, thanks to a lecturer of mine, i had a tough afternoon. imagine this, few days ago, you told your lecturer an idea for a project. and he applauded it for being good. and then, you showed him your project a few days later. he looked at you and asked you what was that. you were stunned. can imagine that? yupe, that's what happened to me. well, i guess it was my fault for not consulting him enough. *sigh*

i just wish there is someone for me to complain to. someone who can tahan when i emo. and someone who can tell me that everything's going to be okay. aiyor, don't need to be a guy la. i prefer a girl friend because only girls can understand girls. i am seriously very stressed. a lot of due dates have to be met. and i am just so lazy!

winscp saves the day!

2007-06-05T00:58:00.000+08:00

*yawn*

just finished updating the discover website. very tiring la.

at least, i managed to learn something new today. i learnt something about winscp(well, it's a kind of file transfering program)! woohoo! i can now update the website without messing with the files. and and, i am now one step nearer in becoming a GEEK! *gasp*

i mentioned about discover quite a lot recently. wish to know more about dicover? Just click here. Discover U.S. Education - KL '07 (aiyor, have to ambil kesempatan and promote a bit la)

i need to come out with an e-badge. you have any cool ideas? care to share with me? i am just so clueless... -.-

Blur case

2007-06-04T18:20:00.000+08:00

haih, i don't know what's happening to me lately.

ok la, let me tell you what happened to me today.

when i came back just now, i was using connaught toll. like usual, i used my 'touch and go' card. i heard the 'beep' sound, so i was accelerating. mana tau, the palang tak nak. luckily, my kaki was fast enough to step on the brake. and then i took a look on the screen where they usually project the amount of money left. my card sudah haus and only left 40 cents! aiyor, no wonder they wouldn't let me pass the toll. and and, the best part is, dad messaged me to use the cash toll instead of the card toll this morning. i totally forgot all about it! >.<

am i just blur or what?

ooh, i totally suck in stats. i had my test this afternoon. i couldn't do without doing open book. luckily, my lecturer was good enough to let us refer to our notes. but the drawback is she will be extremely strict when marking our papers. i know i will make a lot a lot of careless mistakes. cham lor, my 25% is going down the drain. gah!

haih, i need to take a rest now. still, a long night awaits. =D

2007-06-03T14:53:00.000+08:00

iec...iec...

why make my life so miserable?

sorry, just feel like being emo for once...

just ignore me... :(

addicted

2007-06-03T14:52:00.001+08:00

I am addicted to quite a number of songs nowadays.

One of the songs is a Malay song entitled 'Itu Kamu' by this Malaysian band named Estranged. I am not a big fan of Malay songs but suprisingly I am addicted to this song.

Itu Kamu

Segala yg ku pasti akan aku capai tuk mengambil hati mu
Melepasi angkasa cinta ku
Sesudah aku melafazkan kesemua yang diperlu
Ianya seperti suluhan yang terang

Segala yg kau ragui akan ku padam habis dari hati mu
Mengingkari dalaman akal mu
Takkan puas ku, mengiringi semua tawa dan tangisan mu
Anggun wajahmu, pelita yg terang

Hatiku mahu mu
Rupa mu
Masih masih masih masih

Kau terindah
Masih ada
Yang tercantik
"Itu Kamu"

Tiada mengapa taupun sampai bila kerna cinta enggan kenal mengalah
Memanah masuk hatiku yang reti
Setelah kau nampak tetap ku masih menunjukkan erti hidupku
Yang mahu bersama kau buat selamanya

Nothing much has happened recently. Except a couple of tests are coming soon. Wish me all the best! =D

2007-05-20T02:28:00.000+08:00

i am bored. i am doing the same things over and over again everyday.

i am stressed. i have a lot of things to do. i just don't know where to start.

i am an idiot. i tend to do things before thinking. in the end, i mess up things badly.

i am lonely. at times, when i need someone, i realize there is no one.

i am clueless. i have no idea when others are taking the initiative to know me better.

i am NOT PERFECT! as much as i am trying to, in the end, i suffered because i can never be one!

please forgive me for the mistakes i have done in the past.

please understand that i am only human.

please give me the courage to walk until the end of my life.

-end-

2007-05-19T11:21:00.000+08:00

i actually stayed up until 3 this morning. i have panda's eyes now... -__________-

i was talking to syamsul, wun min, su yuen and christi through skype. i must admit i was a little jakun because that was my first time using skype and also first using headphone to conference. what do you expect wei, i am kampung mah. but, it was FUN!

what have i done during the 5 long hours? ermmm, i did nothing. ya, nothing! nil! nada! zilch! kosong! except using photoshop to blend statue of liberty and brooklyn bridge. ok, the header i came up with is a total mess. and i am supposed to show it to syamsul today. aiyor, matilah aku. i need ideas. IDEAS, IDEAS, more IDEAS! so someone please help me!

i better get going. i need to be in college around 1 later. =D

oooh oooh, please check out http://discoverUSeducation.org . i bet the new design will startle you! Hehehe...

test, test, test

2007-05-18T19:56:00.000+08:00

Create your own Friend Test here

what a day...

2007-05-04T12:10:00.000+08:00

i went to the US embassy today this morning to apply for my visa. sad news is, i haven't gotten my visa yet. according to the guy who interviewed me, there wasn't enough proof to show that my parents can support my 1st year in us. he said i need to go back to the embassy again and show him some documents, then only he will approve my visa. i mean, it was really frustrating because i thought it can be settled in one day. dad said it will be fine and we will go there again with all the documents the embassy guy needed. i hope my visa will be approved after the second time.

ooh ooh, and everything went well for rachel. she has gotten her visa approved already! congrats!

the good news is, i have checked my previous semester results, and i have to say i am quite satisfied with it. no president's list, but i kind of expected it. it saves my day after a frustrating morning.

i have to go for IEC meeting tomorrow. on sunday, i am supposed to go to Menara Yayasan Tun Razak to attend the "Oppurtunities for Students in the USA Fair" will be held by US embassy and MACEE. the discover us education-kl committee will also be promoting "Discover US Education - KL '07" on sunday. if you have any free time, do go and check it out if you haven't decided where to further your studies. US might just be the right place that you are looking for.

april's fool

2007-04-01T21:13:00.000+08:00

ooh, happy april's fool...

to those who kena fooled, pity you. i nearly kena today. mum was planning to fool my sis and i that dad hit jackpot. but tak jadi, she just couldn't do it. poor mum!

anyhow, have a nice april's fool...and my hair is definitely no no fool! =D

farewell

2007-04-01T21:05:00.000+08:00

to my dearest straight hair,

thanks for being there for these 18 years. you know it's hard for me to let you go. but i did it anyway, sorry. i need a change. you should feel happy for me. i have curly hair now. don't worry buddy, i will meet you after 6 months. =D

love,
caroline

yupe, i have curly hair now. my sis said it looks nice and lala-ish. ouch! then she changed her mind, saying it makes me look like a japanese doll. ok. i get it. mum said it looks pretty. dad...oh dad, he just shook his head.

i think it looks refreshing. i mean since when i have curly hair. nil. nada. right? it has always been the simple and plain and un-taken-care straight hair, right?

ok la, i leave it for your most dependable judgement. till i meet you. =D

exhausted...

2007-03-19T12:02:00.000+08:00

I am very tired...

No, super tired is more accurate to describe my tiredness now...

Plus, I am sick again. Very very sick. If you want to talk to me, better bring me lots of tissue...*ha chiu*

I went to Lee Hom's concert 2 weeks ago and it was GREAT!!! Lee Hom is so HOT and that's certainly a fact if you have personally seen him before. He is super TALENTED!!! He can sing, he can dance, he can compose songs, he can play 4 or 5 musical intruments...*melted on the spot* If I am hardworking enough, I might be able to post some of the pictures. So, stay tune...

And and, C-Raze just ended!!! Yahoo!!! In case some of you are wondering what's C-Raze, let me explain it this way. C-Raze is INTI Subang version of Amazing Race(aik aik, I can hear people saying copy cat. shame on you.) but its main aim is to raise fund for charity. (ha, that makes thing clearer) Basically, teams are supposed to go from one checkpoints to another and perform some tasks. There were 11 checkpoints and 4 tasks.

It was fun to see teams rushing from one place to another. Not only the contestants, crews including me had to rush also. And and, the best part is, I lead the crews to the WRONG place!!! I mean, I know the way to Bukit Bintang, Tmn Jaya and Subang la, of course. Perhaps it was a bit stressful because I need to direct them to the right place, I actually made a few MISTAKES when I was directing. OMG!!! That's definitely a mistake LEARNT!!!

I took some pictures during C-Raze. Hopefully, when I have a little bit of time, I can upload it to show you how fun is C-Raze. Tak guna jer cakap dengan mulut. Must show some proof before you believe me. Ngehehe...

I just received my I-20 from Drake today. Orientation is going to be on August 21/22. I guess I'll be leaving Malaysia on the 18th or 19th of Aug. Damn, that's fast... Anyway, Drake seems to be a nice place for my major. And hopefully, I get someone I know as my room mate. *hinting to Rachel* hahaha...

Alright, I need to stop here. I have a really crazy week ahead. 2 Matlab assignments and 2 tests this week. Crazy ar? =D

Till then. Bye!

-.- Sigh.

lee hom's concert

2007-03-04T16:33:00.000+08:00

I am going to Lee Hom's concert in a few hours time... Can't wait... This is my biggest present from my parents before I leave Malaysia...

It's been a busy week with assignments due and test. I managed to hold on and here I am writing...

Will update once I have time... =D

By,
Hushy -.-

i am happy!!!

2007-02-21T12:00:00.000+08:00

Weeeeee...I am so happy...

Drake accepted me!!! And I was granted 15K USD worth of scholarship!!! Hopefully, Rachel gets it too, then we can go together... Drake, here I come!!!

But sad part is, I am going to leave Malaysia soon...

I will miss my family, all my friends, my bed, my books. my...everything :(

Right now, I need to concentrate and finish my 2 more semesters here...

happy chinese new year

2007-02-19T20:44:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE OUT THERE!!!

May all of you are blessed with good fortune, health, wealth, prosperity, love and looks in the year of oink oink...

I will be back soon...=D

Sweet Valentine

2007-02-14T19:11:00.000+08:00

Song that stuck in my head right now - Mi Amor by RBD

My blog has been dead for the past few months, so sorry. Now that I am back, I shall revive it, WTH?

I could not be much happier for the past few months. I had a trip to Hong Kong and most importantly, Hong Kong Disneyland. My friends told me they found the love of their life. I had a most unforgettable surprise birthday party and jeng jeng jeng today, I actually received my first ever Valentine's gift from my friends. Am I lucky or what? Though not as expensive as what couples received, but hey, it is the heart that matters, seriously. Laugh out loud if you want to, but this is me, I don't hope for expensive stuff. As long as you remember me, I will be soooooooo HAPPY!

I have finished my 1st tests for all my subjects and got back the results also. I am quite satisfied with them because I know I don't deserve them based on the time I used to study. I PROCRASTINATE a lot a lot a lot. Now have to work hard for my midterms and 2nd tests.

I realized that I get angry very fast when I am busy or doing other stuff. And when I got angry at my friends when they disturbed me or made fun out of me, eventually they said that I am damn 'small gas', 'dai pai', 'chi sin' or any other names you can think off. I usually don't mind if you say it in front of me. Sometimes, I will look up at you and give you that uneasy stare. Occasionally, I will look at you and laugh and reply with all sorts of nonsensical stuff. But one thing that I don't like is when somebody talk behind my back. Not to say I didn't do that, but I only did that when it is an event that has happened to me and I have nowhere to complaint. I won't purposely go to this person and starts spreading rumors or bad things about one person. Or at times, when I want to plan something out of surprise for someone, of course I cannot say out loud in front of that person, right? I not, I will not be a surprise anymore, don't ya think so? So people, if you want to talk bad about me, say it in front of me lar. I can take it, don't worry. Let me know where's my fault, and give me a chance to ponder upon my mistakes lar. =D

Enough of my ramblings, I shall stop here while I still can. Will update soon(though soon sounds subjective, I will try my best). Hope you have a nice day(date) lar. Bye!

Fingers down,
Hushy

Jordan Knight & Deborah Gibson - Say Goodbye

2006-12-12T18:11:00.000+08:00

I love music. I LOVE songs. I L-O-V-E songs that are meaningful.

I listen to MixFM quite frequent nowadays, especially at night. I found that listening to radio channel is quite relaxing at times. Listening to radio channel is much more worthy than buying a CD, to be honest. I have a new hobby now - listening to radio. =D

This song by Jordan Knight and Deborah Gibson caught my attention lately. It is called "Say Goodbye". Jordan Knight was the lead singer of a successful boyband during the 80's, New Kids From The Block. Yupe, the same band as Joey McIntyre. And Deborah Gibson was also a popular singer from the 80's. I seriously can't believe that after so many years, the two of the finally have a duet together. That song is just...sad.

I do not particularly like farewell songs or break-up songs, but the lyrics of that song is quite true. I believe that is what most people feel after their break-ups. They feel lost, yet they try to mend their relationship and give it a shot again. In the end, they realize it is too late and there is no other word than "goodbye".

Jordan Knight & Deborah Gibson - Say Goodbye

-Jordan-
Yeah I've been so lost lately
I don't really understand baby
Where did I go wrong
I wanna talk to you
Please call

-Deborah-
Where do I begin with you
after all that we've been through
I don't think that it would be right if we
got together so suddenly

-J-I wish that I could take back all of the things that I said
and replace them with simply
I love you instead

-Chorus-
-D-You didn't wanna say goodbye
But you never really seem like you wanna try

-J-But I only wanter you to stay
and then I let you just slip away

-D-If you didn't listen to your heart inside
then it really doesn't matter what was on your mind
and if you need me then tell me why

-J-Girl, I never meant to say goodbye
-chorus-

-J-I think about the past baby
Why we couldn't make it last, lady
I know you still have doubts
But I'm gonna prove that we can work things out

-D-I wanna be sure that you
know what you put me through and
reveal that you intend
to never let me down again

-J-It's clear to me and I can't ignore
that I have to give you something
I couldn't before

-Repeat chorus-

-D-I didn't think that we would come to this

-J-Ooh, no Your eyes, your face, your smile is what I miss

-D-Why did you wait so long to take me back

-D&J-It's all a simple misunderstanding

-Repeat chorus twice-

Hope you enjoy the song.

to be continued...

2006-11-21T14:44:00.000+08:00

Song playing in WMP - Hallelujah by Jeff Buckley

From previous post...

I was quite happy when I heard from Mum that she was given some movie tickets by some company. It was for the new Bond movie, Casino Royale on the premiere night, which was last Thursday. Damn syok wei. On that day, it was a day full of frustration. Apparently Jusco decided they should have a Members' Day SALEs, so you can actually imagine what Mid Valley was like because I heard from Dad, only Jusco Mid Valley and Jusco somewhere in Johor had this sales and it actually started as early as 7 in the morning. I was still sleeping soundly in my comfortable and warm blanket while those aunties-aunties all lined up with their what-to-buy lists at 7.00 AM. According to Dad, it was really jammed in the morning and cars were heading to Mid Valley from all direction. He then added it was an insane idea as it just added to more traffic problems and noise pollution.

Okay, my point is, we could not drive to Mid Valley at night because even at night, it was still very jammed. So, we had to take KTM instead from KL Sentral. Taking KTM is not fun, especially at 8 something, when people are all rushing home. It was stuffy and warm in the train. But, we had no choice. Instead of heading towards the cinema, Mum bought Sis a classical guitar as promised. Then we went to the cinema. There were so many people and most of them were still wearing their working attire.

But still, the movie is quite good. Daniel Craig who acted as James Bond in this movie, gives the movie a brand new start. James Bond no longer is the perfect and invisible guy who relies on Q's ingenious gadgets everytime he needs to escape from dangers, this time around he shows vulnerabilities as a human being and depends on his physical ability and sharp mind to sort things out. He looks more rugged and manly in Casino Royale, almost like a spy. To cut things short, Daniel Craig did a good job. Throughout the movie, I could not take my eyes off... no, not Daniel Craig, but Eva Green. She was so hot in that movie and you can actually melt by looking at her. Vesper Lynd is my favourite Bond girl, just watch the movie and you will know why. Besides Vesper, Theresa Bond in On Her Majesty's Secret Service is another of my favourite. I should stop here or else I can't resist writing the synopsis of the movie.

If you are planning to watch the movie, hope you have a great time. If you are not, well, I can do nothing but to tell you that it's a movie worth watching. Still, it's your choice. =)

2006-11-16T15:53:00.000+08:00

Song playing in WMP - Torn (accoustic version) by Natalie Imbruglia

Okay, I know I have ditched my blog for like almost 2 months, I truly am sorry. I mean it, okay? A part of me don't feel like blogging and yet, another part of me want to scream out everything that is in my nearly exploded brain. So, I gave up and there I am, writing about my boring life. Hmmmm, do I sound like as though I am being forced? Nay, I am not. Instead, I am grateful that I finally have a chance to write what's mind. So here goes.

Well, it has been 2 weeks since my final examination ended. To be really really honest, I did not do well in all the 3 papers. But, to be really really honest again, I think I have done my best. *sigh* Mum, dad, please don't be mad at me. I swear I will perform better next semester. I solemnly swear.

AUP Farewell Nite for year 2006 was held after final examination. That event was organized to bid farewell to AUP students that are leaving this coming spring. Though not as grand as other big event, it was simply simple and warm as it was also a night to revive and remember. Remember what you may ask. Of course to remember all their moments of joy and sorrow while studying in ICSJ, as well as to remind them that friendship they have established in INTI will continue to last forever, even if it means for eternity. It turned out to bequite a success, I may say. At least everybody is having fun and enjoy the games, food and performances that was prepares. Thumbs up for everyone who made this event a success!

After AUP Farewell Nite, I went for ICSJ groundbreaking ceremony. Can you believe after so long, INTI finally decided to renovate the campus and it will complete in year 2008. Yes, read me, year 2-0-0-8. I would not be here to see and most importantly, use the new campus. Back to my point, ah yes, groundbreaking. I was in the kompang team, which consists mostly of INTIMA Exco, tension eh? Well, tension not, because they are just some nice people who have fun which serving INTI students.

I just came back from council camp a few days ago. It was really really really fun, mainly because I was there with a few kaki lepaks of mine. We did quite a lot of activities, which includes flying fox, rafting, candlelight talk, obstacle course and some indoor and outdoor games. I like flying fox the most, though the distance was a lil' bit short, but it was a totally new experience. All in all, I can summarize the stay in Dusun Eco in just one word, FUN! =)

To be continued...

2006-09-17T22:01:00.000+08:00

Song of the day - E Zuo Ju(Prank) by Wang Lan Yin

PROCRASTINATION has officially taken its toll on me. My 2nd semester results in fact, is a very good example. Not that I am particularly diligent, but at least in high school, I was still motivated to study in order to get into top 10 position(once in a while), top 5 position(once in every blue moon) or top 3(once in every sun-that-rise-from-the-west). Needless to elaborate further, I think you get my point. At least, sort of getting it.

I am currently in 3rd semester, which is an extremely short semester. I am quite thrilled as this semester is only 2 months long. But, at the same time, I think this semester is quite intense, as we have to finish our syllabus in 2 months. Imagine, you have to finish reading that be-hated buku sejarah of yours in 2 months, crazy or what?

Luckily, I have taken only 2 AUP subjects, which are American History I and Principles of Accountings II, plus Malaysia Studies. I guess it won��t that hectic, right? Fortunately, I have friends in all my lectures. I have Rachel in my AH and PA, Lynda in AH and Michelle in MS. Of course, there are other friends too, but these 3s are my Kaki Gila-Together. Things are so much better if the 3 of them around with Rachel being the teaser, Lynda being the amplifier and Michelle being the random-er.

Well well, I guess I better stop here now. I have lectures tomorrow from 12 to 6. Ahhhh, it will definitely be a tiring tomorrow. I will update my bloggie some other day if I ever have time. Wish you have a pleasant night and sweet dreams yea.

P.S. Before I leave, let me enlighten you with lyric from one of my favourite song, E Zuo Ju(Prank) by a talented singer, Wang Lan Yin. This song has been in my head since like forever. And the lyrics are quite meaningful, at least for those who have encountered their crush and fell in love since. So, here goes.

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Whatever it is...

2006-08-03T12:19:00.000+08:00

Song of the Day - Write a Song by Shunza

I am currently in unofficial holiday mood now, half studying, half holidaying.

I just woke up about 2 hours ago. The first thing I thought of was what day is it today. Yupe, today is love-ly Thursday. Tomorrow is Friday. Then, the next day after tomorrow is loath-ly Saturday. Can I scream out loud? Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... Done. I will be having my first ever final examination on Saturday - LAN paper. And I am still blogging here. Come on, let me de-stress myself. This is the only place where I can do that, okay?

My college mate told me good news of her just now. Nay, I am not going to reveal her secret. She knows and I know can already lar. She is happy which makes me happy too, considering she is one of my closest in college. And please, don't waste anymore time of yours yea.

Since I have got no more things to rant about, let me just briefly tell you, a little bit of me : -

I am just simply unpredictable. Well, I am an aquarius-ian, what do you expect?
I am serious when it comes to matters like studies. But when it comes to playing, I might just be the most playful one.
I dislike people who lie. They can just go eat themselves up.
I detest people who don't give signals while on the road. If anything happens, don't blame anyone lar, blame yourself. Basic driving skill also cannot perform, go and learn your undang all over again lar.
I love family and friends. Though I have quite a number of friends, but there are only a few that know me well and you know who you are.
I love chocolate and music! Music is my life. Without music, who am I? Lee Hom's music is definitely my favourite.
I sing at times. And some day, I wish to perform in some kind of gig and pity those who come to hear me sing. =P
I have my own mood swing as well. And when I am moody, please let me be alone.
I hate to memorize stuff. I might love to count, but I am totally hopeless in memorizing stuff.
I do cry sometimes, but only when something matters to me. Don't ask me why. I am just as clueless as you.

I should be studying by now. Hopefully, I can do well in my finals. I'll pray for everyone and sincerely hope you'll doing the same as well. Happy studying and enjoy your life. =)

Fingers down,
Hushy

Just another random entry...

2006-07-29T11:21:00.000+08:00

Song of the Day - To Be Loved by Ronan Keating

Well, sorry for not updating for like almost 3 months. Nothing has happened to me, don't worry. It's just that I don't have the mood to update. Assignments, tests, presentation... I feel so relieved because everything is almost over, well, at least my finals is just around the corner. After my finals, I can totally enjoy.

Wai Fon called yesterday to tell that me she's sick. I mean it literally, she's having high fever and sorethroat. She told me there's no one at home and therefore she called me. You know, I am glad that the first person you thought of was me. Having graduated from secondary school, I am further and further away from my bestest friends - Wai Fon, Chung Yen and of course, Ade. Memories we had together I will totally cherish until the end of my life. The 3 of you are the greatest people I've ever met. Yo perempuan Wai Fon, you better go see doctor. Hope you recover soon. And GOOD LUCK in your econs test. =D

Honestly, I have no mood to study already. Why? Don't ask me why. I scored quite low for some of my subject coursework. I need to score extremely good in my finals to actually pull up the score in order to get an 'A'. But, knowing my own ability, I seriously do not thing it's possible to do so. Therefore, I am just trying my very best...

To those who spam(in a good way) my tagboard,
Lamb - Heyyo, how are you doing? And didn't know you actually read my blog. And you still call me lollipop, haih... After my finals, I am so going to write you a long long long e-mail... wait for me....

Caramonty - Aiyor, don't give up lar... I that sui ar, until you don't want to come to my blog anymore...

Roy aka batman aka hokkien man - Oooi bro, don't spam my tagboard lar... just kidding lar, cheer up lar...

Elle - Updating updating... In the progress...

Shadow - Thanks for the compliment...

Jason - Glad that you actually like the cap...

Joey - Poke-s definitely received... =D

Wai Fon - Yesh, totally missshhhh u... =D

That's it poeple, enjoy your weekend... And happy studying!!! =P

Fingers down,
Hushy

another day...

2006-06-08T19:11:00.000+08:00

Song of the day - I'll stand by you by Girls Aloud

'I'll stand by you' by Girls Aloud is one of the song in the '100 Most Beautiful Love Songs', the CDs I bought yesterday. At first when I listen to the song, I think it was ok, not that bad. But when I have a good look at the lyrics, I felt so emo. The lyrics is so meaningful.

I'll Stand By You - Girls Aloud

Oh, why you look so sad
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Don't be ashamed to cry
Let me see you through
Cause I've seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
You don't know what to do
Nothing you confess
Could make me love you less

I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you

So
If you're mad, get mad
Don't hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
Hey,what you've got to hide?
I get angry too
Well I'm a lot like you
When you're standing at the crossroads
And don't know which path to choose
Let me come along
Cause even if you are wrong

Take me in to your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
And when
When the night falls on you, baby
You're feeling all alone
You're walking on your own

Take me in to your darkest hour
And I'll never desert you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you
Take me in into your darkest hour
Won't let nobody hurt you
I'll stand by you
I'll stand by you

So meaningful right? To all my friends, I dedicate this song to you. The lyrics is exactly what I have in mind. No matter ups or downs, you still have my support. No matter where you are, I will still be here. I'll still stand by you, my friends.

Fingers down,
Hushy

relief

2006-06-07T18:12:00.000+08:00

Song of the day - Walk away by Kelly Clarkson

Yay!!! *shout like nobody's business*

Yupe, finally all my tests are over and of course, I am relieved. After my acc test, I went out to watch movie with Rachel and Le Roy. Haha, I can't believe I agree to watch The Omen with them. Yupe, the horror movie I was talking about. The Omen is definitely the first ever horror movie I watched in the cinema. I wasn't the ugly and disgusting figure I'm scared of. It's the suddenly-something-appear-with-loud-background-sound I am afraid of. So,I had to hide myself beneath my pink sweater. Go ahead lar, I don't mind you laughing at me for being so cowardy. But, that's me. NO SPOILERS HERE. Go watch lar the movie if you want to know more about it. Just want to warn you to be alert throughout the movie. =)

Oooo, I bought a new CD. It's actually 5 cds with the price of 1 cd, which is 49 ringgit. There are 100 songs altogether in the 5 cds, which means one song is just 50 cents. Woohoo!!! And the title of the cds is '100 beautiful love songs'. I don't know half of the songs in the cds, but I do love love songs. So if you have a chance, grab the cds and listen to them. The songs will sure melt your heart.

That's all for now. Update later. Take care yea and bye bye. Adios! *wink

exhausted...

2006-06-06T19:27:00.000+08:00

06/06/06(fuiyoh, the numbers so nice rite???)
Song of the day - La camisa negra by Juanes(talented Columbian singer, unique style of song)

I just came back from college. Damn exhausted lar. I have 8 hours of lectures straight on Wednesday. I'm killing myself softly.

I had my 1st ever calculus 2 test, it was a bit tough. I think I have lots of careless mistakes. As usual, me and my careless mistakes. =) So far, I've finished 3 tests and thus, I'm left with one, which is accounting. And my acc test is tomorrow. Cannot, I must study already. I just hope I can load everything inside my head by tonight.

After test tomorrow, my friends and I plan to watch movie. Watch what movie??? I don't know. They thought of watching The Omen. But, I'm scared of scary movie, so I cannot follow them. So sad right??? But nevermind, I can watch other movie, such as X-men III. Yay, can't wait till tomorrow.

Lots of things happen these few days. Sigh. I'm not supposed to say it out to anybody. I swear to my friends I'm not going to do so. But oh well, just want to wish them all the best in every steps they take. If you need anybody to talk to or anybody to listen to you, I might not be the best person to talk to, but just want to let you know that, hey, you can come and talk to me. Don't keep all your problems to yourself, you still have friends. That's what friends are for, be there for you no matter you have ups or downs.

Ok lar, I need to bath now. Will update again soon. Take care. Adios!!!

Fingers down,
7.41pm
Hushy

60 seconds post...

2006-06-04T23:31:00.000+08:00

04/06/06
Song of the day - Lee Ryan When I think of you

Ready, set, go...

It's 60 seconds post and I have to be really really really fast. Seriously, 60 seconds are not enough.

Damn no life??? Yea, I know. But I have to be no life sometimes. That's life. Alright, I am talking nonsense.

My 60 seconds is nearly up. Will update again soon. Yupe, soon. I don't know how soon is soon, but yeah, SOON. Adios!!!

Fingers down,
11.36 pm

pre-entry...

2006-05-15T23:16:00.001+08:00

Ok, I know I have not been updated since like berkurun-kurun lamanyer, so yeah, should at least scribble something, hehe.

I am not going to be berpanjang lebar since it's quite late now and my beloved bed is waiting for me. Actually, there's absolutely no need to type this now as I'll be typing a longer post tomorrow. But, maklumlah, my fingers are very itchy and I don't want to garu it. So, have to type to ease the itchiness. That serve the purpose of calling this entry a pre-entry, my point is, IT SERVE A PURPOSE, that's all.

Nothing much I can talk about. I started my 2nd semester with a bunch of subjects, hmmmm, 5 subs actually. So far so good, but in the future, errrrr, I can't guarantee anything. Calculus being my favourite subject, because of the lecturer, love ya Ms Shanta. So far no homework yet, I think lecturers are waiting for the right time when everyone starts to get busy then only they give. Usually when they give assignments, they'll give like together or the deadlines are almost the same date. Sometimes I even suspect them having a meeting to discuss about deadlines amongst each other. Hmmmm, maybe, I don't know.

I think I'll be doing a serious entry tomorrow, hope I have time to. Please pray for me as I have like 8 hours lectures straight, WTH right, I know, poor me. I seriously can hear my bed, my bantal, my bolster and my teddies calling me, ok perhaps I am just hallucinating, but that means I have good imagination okay??? That's all for now, will write again tomorrow. =D

Fingers down,
11.27pm

Random online quizzes...

2006-04-22T10:20:00.000+08:00

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

You Are 16 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

Ok, I have to admit that I am freaking bored. Therefore, I went to a few blogs belong to friends of mine. I went to TJ's blog and saw the first quiz. Therefore, I decided to try it out. And TADa, the results proved to be quite accurate, except for some parts. Haha, I don't need love right now, true true. All I need is my family and my bunchies of wacky friends. Second and third quiz are quite accurate as well, stating I'm 60% girlish and 40% boyish. I was expecting the boyish part to be a lil' bit higher, But oh well, I guess 4o% is enough. And last quiz says that I'm 16 years old, wakakakaka.

Saturday is today. I really can't believe 1 week has passed, just like that. I have to say I miss my friends dearly, though I hate to admit it, and I really hope that new semester will start right away. But on the other hand, sigh, I doesn't want this holiday to end that fast. *roll eyes* Alright alrigth, I'm fickle-minded.=p

OK, I really need to go now. I can hear my piano theory assignments calling me.(Well, I am just imagining, not schizophrenic.) Till then, see you next time. Take care. Adios!

Fingers down,

10.44am

Caroline

Debut-ed...

2006-04-16T18:42:00.000+08:00

The thing is, I've been changing the blogskin for so many many frigging times. And yet, I'm lazy to move my fingers and just type. I had this blog like...let me count, 2 months ago, but then... Okok, the point is, I AM LAZY.

Back to the title, Debut-ed, means I am going to write a debut entry which i am supposed to write months ago. Thus, here goes...

Helloooooooooooo everyone!!! Finally, I have time to write my first ever entry for this blog. Well, I had a blog a couple of years ago, so this is not really my first blog. But I never really update. Therefore, I stop updating my previous blog. Probably you would be wondering the reasons why I start to blog again. Well, I don't know. I just feel like having one and I don't have any reason to have a blog.

I just finished my final examinations last week. I kinda did badly in all my papers. Plus I was sick, literally. Having flu and sitting for Calculus paper is NO FUN at all. Just imagine you have to squeeze your brain juice as hard as you can to do Maths equation and constantly sedut balik your mukus into your nose as quietly as possible at the same time, the feeling can kill I tell you. But luckily, I did all my papers. I seriously don't know what would happen to my CGPA. Perhaps I might flunk it. I have not a single idea.

Just two days ago, I had my driving test. Hoohoo, I'm a legal driver now, but still have to wait for my license to be an official legal driver. To be honest, waiting to be tested was a torture. Let me tell you my story. I arrived at the JSP testing centre around 9 something. Then I have to queued for like half an hour under the hot sun to get my number. After that, I waited until 1 o'clock for the parking test. Slope, parking and 3-point turn was alright I guess. Then, I waited for another 3 hours for the on the road test. On the road was rather horrifying but it turned out fine. When I finally got everything done, it was already 5 o'clock. So menyeksakan man I tell you. But, I am beyond being happy now because I can finally drive.

I am having my 2 weeks semester break now. I seriously don't know how to spend my holiday. Sleep and eat would be my main activities I guess. After my sem break, I would be super uber fat, SHOT! But anyhow, holiday is better than nothing. After this 2 weeks, I have to start my new semester already and I might not even have time for a break.

Alright, I guess I have to stop here. I am currently watching American Idol now. Can't wait to know who will be eliminated this time. Ok, till then see you next time. Take care. Adios!

Fingers down,
5.25 pm
Caroline