Failure

Hmmmmm, somehow I am immune to failure.

Failure doesn't mean as much as it was anymore. I am getting scared. I have lost my will to strive for better things.

All I need is a miracle and I am praying every single moment. *switch on emo-mode*

It's Snowing!

OK. So, it's snowing. I was pretty excited when I first saw it coming. Apart from it, nothing else more to say. In fact, I don't really like snow, if you ever ask me. It's very slippery and makes it hard to walk.

So I am money concerned. I mean, who is not concerned about money $$$$$$$$$$? I am very concerned when it comes to money and when I think something is not right, I will just shoot it out. It's only for money. But when it comes to other things, I will just keep my mouth shut.

I just realized I have made many stupid mistakes that lead people to dislike me. If only I know what makes them dislike me so much? In the mean time, I guess I have to live with it and just pretend that I don't know people dislike me!

Solemnly signing out,
Hushy

外国的月亮是否特别圆？

外国的月亮是否特别圆？

这问题，我在祖国已经想过了好几次。结果，在我来到美国才知道。原来这里的月亮虽然比较圆，可是却能看不能碰。而且，这里也不能与家人赏月。却只能一个人抬头望天空，靠记忆与想象力，才能感觉到与家人的温暖。

我好怀念我的家呀！可是，我却没后悔过。我只能默默地祈祷，祈祷时间快点地过。让我在与家人一再重逢吧！

-完毕-

MahJong

Guess what I learnt today?

I can't believe it? I actually learnt to play mahjong!!!

OMG, and I am so addicted! :p

Cham lor, I am supposed to study leh. But I am thinking about mahjong right now. >.<

Have a good night. =D

Of Test, Assignments and Fall Break

Gahhhh, I am having STATS132 test tomorrow, and yet, I have the mood to blog here. Come closer, and I will tell you a secret. Closer. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO DO STATS132. IT'S SO CONFUSING THAT I NEED TO DIG A HOLE AND BURY MY HEAD INSIDE. Phewww, that was so much better. I never felt so lost in a class before. Even back in Malaysia, when I don't understand things, I always find ways to make myself understand. I am needing a miracle tomorrow if I want to score in STATS132. And the best part is, it's open book and open notes test, which sort of hint that the test is going to be frigging tough. >.<

After the test tomorrow, I will have 2 assignments to hand in, which is ACTS140 and FIN101. I did half of ACTS140 and never touch on FIN101. Am I dead or what? If I am granted 3 wishes, my wishes wil be, I need more time, I need more time and I STILL NEED MORE TIME!

What got me moving this whole week is the much anticipated Fall Break, which starts on Oct 13 to Oct 16. But for business students, it is actually starting on the 12th instead of 13th since business school is closed on Friday. Woohoo~ 5 days break, you must be thinking I am going to enjoy to the max. But no, I am supposed to work in Bell Center at least 4 hours a day. But, working in Bell Center is not that bad at all, considering most of the shift that I signed up for is study shift. Lucky me. =D

Alright, that's all for now. I will update more if I have more interesting stuff to tell. If you think that this blog is full of boring stuff, I am so sorry. I can't think of anything better to write. After all, my life is that dull. But, I LIKE MY LIFE!!!

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Not So Public Anymore

My blog is no longer public anymore. It can only be viewed by those that I have invited. Whether my invitation are accepted or not, it is their decision.

I don't know why I privatized my blog. It is like, suddenly I have this thought in my mind while I was sleeping one day. I just don't like when random people reads my blog. Then you may ask, then why do you want a blog for? The reason I have a blog is because I want to shout out all my happiness, problems, frustrations, yaya yada, ladida ladida...at a place, a secluded place that I trust. And my blog is the best place. Only friends I trust can view my blog. How nice right?

From now on, whenever I am happy or sad, delighted or frustrated, the first thing I'll do is to update this blog. So people can share my happiness and some not-so-happy stuff. And don't say I didn't warn you about some emo stuff. Well, I hope I won't have emo stuff to talk about because it's bad. And I hate it when I have to ruin you day.

Until then, I bid you farewell, my beloved readers. I really appreciate it when you accepted my invitation. And I am more delighted when you read my blog. THANK YOU!!! =D

Late for Work

Alamak, I was late for work, for the first time...

My manager was quite unhappy, and of course, I am to be blamed >.<

Oh yea, I was late for work today because of Actuarial Evening, which is one of the reason I never regretted enrolling in Drake. Actuarial Evening is an internship and full-time recruitment program specially for Drake students. Of course, getting an internship or full-time job here is very competitive. But, it's a very good learning experience.

Ooh ooh, I got my free financial calculator already. Thanks to CIGNA! The financial calculator, BA II Plus will cost RM150 and I got it for free!!! =D

Tear Me Apart

I wonder have you ever kept all your problems to yourself?

And your problems keep bulding and building until they reach the peak.

Something within you just snap.

You do something out of your norm.

For me, I just cried and cried so badly, until my sob almost tear me apart. I just cried and cried to sleep.

It was embarassing of course, but this is just me, who cry her problems away.

Piling Up

Good new is, I have gotten myself a job. I am working as a monitor in Bell Center. Not too bad, consider I am working only a few hours per week. So there is extra pocket money for me to spend save. And the coordinator, Kate is her name, is a super nice person. =D

Bad new is, my work is piling up like nobody's business. I have 2 tests next week, Finance and Marketing. I have never really liked this 2 subs. Finance is still OK, but Marketing, the lecturer is a nice man, with thick British accent, but he is just plain boring. I slept a few times in his class. I wonder if anyone saw that.

I am taking P paper this November. I have not started anything yet. I can hear the P manual calling me and I am ignoring it! Goshhh, I am useless...

crazy weather

Gahhhhh...

Weather in Des Moines is really unpredictable.

It was really cold yesterday. But, but, it was so hot during the day today!!!

Silly me who wore a sweater and was sweating under it. And I had to to walk to US Bank, which is 6 streets away.

Crazy weather.

Gahhhhh...>.<