piece of dead meat

i am super tired.

i want to sleep and sleep and sleep like pig.

discover and aup ball were over.

i felt so relief.

a few more assignments and tests and quizzes to go.

i have impromptu speech on thursday, nervous.

less than a month till the day i am leaving malaysia.

end.

goodbye iec

i can't believe that today is the last day of iec. iec has offiicially stepped down and the intima room nows belong to 32nd intima excos.

i have not been so attached to a club/society before. furthermore, iec is not just any ordinary club/society. it is actually called the independent election commission to help in assisting the election of the 32nd excos. and mr. tan wei cai was the chairperson of 32nd iec.

i had a lot of fun in iec. not to mention, i had a lot of bad times in iec too. but, i think i will remember those good times we had in iec the most, especially wei cai's lameness. =D

i actually got to know some members better. iec changed my view towards some members who gave me bad first impression. after knowing them, i learnt that i can't really judge a book by its cover.

iec is ending after today. i am actually proud to say that i was an ex-iec member. goodbye 32nd iec! =(

shoot me or kill myself

i am so dead if i am unable to sell all aup ball tickets within these 4 days. so someone just kill me now because i am quite sure i won't be able to do it. seriously, i will take the responsibility on my shoulder and i will be the one to be blamed. that's so not funny.

the thing is, we really can't trust one's word, especially if one says one will get things done soon or trust one to do things. i am not trying to pinpoint anyone here. i am just trying to tell the fact.

my team and i started off well, with huge amount of bookings and with promises that sounded so good. when some started to ffk, things are not that nice anymore. some started to show me apologetic look with a million of apologies(exegerating again), which i think i still can accept. some didn't even tell me and acted cool, wth. some didn't even remember their promises, double wth. i am still being extremely patient.

my team and i then busied ourselves with other stuff, as we not only have one task. yupe, we remember taking the responsibility and we tried not to break our promises. in the end, we managed to come out with something different. see, we remember our promises. it is not that hard. it just needs a little of our heart, passion, time and commitment, which i am sure most people can offer. can you?

i still remember being in iec,when i almost met dead end when looking for candidates. it was iec members who helped me through the obstacles by promoting and finding candidates too. how i wish the same thing will happen here. i just need a miracle, a miracle to sell off all tickets!

sorry if i sounded a bit offensive, but i was just telling the truth. i might be the nice person you think i am. and at times, i think i am nice too. but i am just so annoyed now, with all these excuses. just put yourself in my situation, can you still smile your huge smile and be nice to everyone? the answer is no, i am positively 100% sure. so, i can't be nice anymore! and the best part is, i don't even care!

i can't believe i sounded so frustrated in here. i need a break. i need a shoulder to cry on. i need to pray for a miracle. i need a place to release the inner me. i need...YOU, my dearest friends!!! *hearts breaking into million pieces and sobbing inside.*

leaving

mum and dad have been very patient with me nowadays. i made a huge mistake on friday by not telling dad something important. my dad ended up calling me 7 times without me realizing. you must be thinking i am such a bad daughter. on the contrary, i have been trying very very hard to be a a good one. it just that at times when i do work, i am really into it and have no room for other things. in the end, my dad just let me off without having me giving any explanation.

i know my mum and dad are really nice to me mainly because i am leaving soon. the thought of leaving them, my family my friends always bring tears to my eyes.

to imagine myself in a land few thousand miles away from my hometown here in malaysia, i can feel the loneliness now. of course, i have a bunch of friends over there. but things will be so different there than what i thought it will be. yesterday, as i was chatting with one of my friends, this friend of mine asked me what do expect in america? i can barely answer the question. i just said i don't know what to expect. please tell me, what can i expect in the stranger land?

dearest readers,

please appreciate what you have. do things like there is no tomorrow, but only today, as today is present, a gift you must really appreciate because there is no 2 similiar todays.

i shall bid you farewell and good night.

13th the friday

ok, i know it's supposed to be friday the 13th. just trying to make things more interesting here.

instead of saying lemony's snicket's a series of unfortunate events, i should change it to friday the 13th's a series of unfortunate events.

so many things happened in just one day. it feels like i just went through 1 week. just exegerating.

i don't feel like blogging now. if you want to know more, read her and her blogs.

so long, farewell, dearest readers.

busy week ahead

dear readers,

sorry for the lack of entries. i was busy with some of the events. and and discover is in 2 more weeks time!

i will not be updating much starting from tomorrow until the end of the semester. for your information, i have a public speaking speech next monday. hmmmm, i won't disclose the topic for my speech until next monday. you just have to wait and see. =D and i have my stats test 2 next wed. i am so not prepared. so voila, there goes my weekend. =(

is it very weird nowdays for not having a bf? because when i told people that i don't have one and not looking for one, they didn't believe it. more outrageously, some even guessed that i am a les. aiyor, which part of me tells you that i am les la? except the part that i am big and fat and ugly(i just have to add this part in =D), every milimetre of me tells you that i am straight. yesh, and i am seriously telling you that i am STRAIGHT, 101%! oh gawd, i cannot believe that people actually think that i am les. i ought to get a bf soon(nahhh, just joking, too troublesome). gahhhhhhhhhhhh...

good night people and until we meet again...

i got room in drake!

beloved readers,

i just got my room and roommate assignment! i never thought i will know until mid july. but yeah, i am excited.

well, according to blueView(sounds pretty high tech, huh? but quite hard to navigate for a beginner like me. yeah, call me noob if you want to. >.<), i got a room in GK(according to some seniors, gk is one of the best dorm) and guess who's my roomies? hahahahhahah, non other than one of the kaki's, ms. rachel yong and a girl from ipoh. the best part is, we are all from malaysia. =D

i am floating in the air right now. reasons being, i opted for gk as my first choice and i got it. and i chose rachel to be my roomie. and i got it too. can't wait to tell rachel tomorrow. weeeeeeeee...

on the other hand, volleyball training is cancelled tomorrow and on the following tuesday due to some events. i am most looking forward to tuesday every week because of volleyball. and for 2 weeks, i have nothing to anticipate anymore. that's sad...

Lee Hom - Luo Ye Gui Gen MV

i just watched lee hom's new mv, 'luo ye gui gen'(falling leaves return to root). so emo wehy, want to cry already. >.<



enjoy the clip yea. =D

just a random tag

*paiseh la, never thought of translating the questions. so here is an editted version, hope to make things clear and no more confusions. =D

saw this in jocelyn's blog. decided to give it a try. here's the outcome, pretty hilarious, i tell you...

TAG
1. 把 music player 放在 shuffle mode. (put your mp3 player in in shuffle mode.)
2. 在每一个问题, 安 forward 来得不同的歌曲. (for each question, press 'next' or 'forward' to get the next song.)
3. 用歌名来回答问题, 虽然有时会没道理, 可是别偷鸡摸狗噢! (use the song to answer each question. though ridiculous at time, no cheating! =D)
4. 有了答案, 就给自己的意见, 关于歌名与问题的搭配. (write down your own thoughts according to the question and song's title.)
5. Tag 五个朋友. (and lastly, tag 5 friends.)

今天是怎样的心情? (How's your feeling today?)
Stacie Orrico - I'm Not Missing You
(I am missing everyone everyday. >.<)

在这生命里, 你会飞的远吗? (In life, will you soar?)
Lee Hom - Di Yi Ge Qing Cheng (First Dawn)
(Huh? Only can fly in the dawn)

你的朋友怎么样看待你? (What do your friends think of you?)
Courtney J - Can't Behave
(I am innocent)

你会结婚吗? (Will you marry?)
Jack Johnson - Constellations
(Mysterious-nyer)

你的最好朋友的主题曲是什么? (What's your best friend's theme song?)
Lee Hom - Yi Shou Jian Dan De Ge (A Simple Song)
(Yea, our theme song is just a simple song)

你生命的故事是什么? (What the story of your life?)
Anson Hu - Wo De Wei Lai Bu Shi Meng (My Future Is Not A Dream)
(Not a dream? Which means my dream will come true? =D)

你的高中是怎么样过的? (How's your high school?)
Jesse McCartney - Beautiful Soul
(True, I met a lot of beautiful souls)

在生命中, 你是怎么样往前走? (In life, how do you move forward?)
Ace Young - Butterflies
(Errrr, which mean I fly?)

你的朋友们最好的优点是什么? (What's your friends' best quality?)
Fort Minor - Where'd You Go
(Tough, tough...)

这周末会怎样? (How's your weekend?)
Peter Caleigh - Reach
(Yupe, I need to reach somewhere this weekend)

说说你的公公和婆婆 (Tell us a little about your grandparents.)
John Denver - Today
(*Cries*)

你的生活过得怎样? (How's your life?)
Lee Hom - Zai Mei Bian
(Wahh, so complicated meh?)

在你的葬礼, 他们会播放什么歌? (What song will they play in your funeral?)
Juanes - Para Tu Amor
(Aiyor, so sad)

世界怎么看待你呢? (How does the world see you?)
Frankie J - More Than Words
(Haih, no need to say anything la)

你会有个快乐的生活吗? (Will you have a happy life ahead?)
James Blunt - Cry
(OMG, I must have a sad life ahead >.<)

你的朋友们真的是怎样看待你的呢? (Your friends see you as...)
Lee Hom - Wei Yi
(Flattered kau-kau =D)

有人暗暗的为你着迷吗? (Any secret admirer?)
Jewel - I Love You Always Forever
(Wahhh, scarry...)

你是怎样让自己更快乐的? (How do you make yourself happy?)
Greenday - Wake Me Up When September Ends
(Huh? Will be happy if wake up when september ends?)

你应该在你的生活中做些什么? (What should you do in life?)
Ferhad - Katakan Saja
(Hmmm, cannot la, later people say that I have more saliva than tea)

你会有孩子吗? (Any kids in the future?)
James Blunt - You're Beautiful
(Errrr, my children will be beautiful?)

你应该在那一首歌跳钢管舞呢? (Which song should you pole dance?)
Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On
(Gahhhh, so slow, how to dance?)

你妈妈怎么看待你呢? (Your mum sees you as...)
Jasan Mraz - Geek In The Pink
(Mum will not say that I'm a geek!)

你的生活中敌人的主题曲? (Your rival's theme song)
Teddy Geiger - Rockin' Right Here
(Errr, too much, right)

你的人品格是如何的呢? (Your personal quality?)
Lee Hom - JULIA
(Sadly, my name is Caroline and not Julia! >.<)

你的婚礼会播放什么歌曲? (What song should be played in your wedding?)
Lin Jun Jie - Sa Rang Hae Yo
(Ahhhhh, nice nice...)

你的未来的伴侣会是怎样的呢? (How's your future soul mate?)
High School Musical - What I've Been Looking For
(Hopefully, he is what I've been looking for =D)

幸福的定义是什么? (What's the happiness?)
Lee Hom - Kiss Goodbye
(What? Happiness is kiss goodbye? Don't want!)

TAG : Michelle, Jaclyn, and I don't know who else read my bloggie.

good morning, dearest readers!

i have macro-econs test 10 hours later. gahhhhh >.<

CALVIN CHONG KAI MUN! take me to 'luo ye gui gen' mtv world premiere tomorrow! i know you are not reading this, but still. so unfair, this lucky dude won the pass. i don't care, must take me.

someone just reminded me of some old, sad story yesterday. yeah, i am now in a 'saddy' mode. i predicted a long, sad day ahead.

lee hom's new song doesn't help too. i like the lyrics and the feel. but the melody sounded so 'kesian'. mum heard the song. she too felt that it is too 'cai leong'. and she actually suggested to bring over to us. whenever i think of home, i can just listen to that song and have a good cry. i guess my mum and sis will miss me the most when i leave to us later.

so yeah, enough of my pointless ramblings. i should end here. i bid you, my readers a good day ahead. keep your fingers cross for my test, will you? i just need to a good sleep now. till next time...