Not So Public Anymore

My blog is no longer public anymore. It can only be viewed by those that I have invited. Whether my invitation are accepted or not, it is their decision.

I don't know why I privatized my blog. It is like, suddenly I have this thought in my mind while I was sleeping one day. I just don't like when random people reads my blog. Then you may ask, then why do you want a blog for? The reason I have a blog is because I want to shout out all my happiness, problems, frustrations, yaya yada, ladida ladida...at a place, a secluded place that I trust. And my blog is the best place. Only friends I trust can view my blog. How nice right?

From now on, whenever I am happy or sad, delighted or frustrated, the first thing I'll do is to update this blog. So people can share my happiness and some not-so-happy stuff. And don't say I didn't warn you about some emo stuff. Well, I hope I won't have emo stuff to talk about because it's bad. And I hate it when I have to ruin you day.

Until then, I bid you farewell, my beloved readers. I really appreciate it when you accepted my invitation. And I am more delighted when you read my blog. THANK YOU!!! =D

Late for Work

Alamak, I was late for work, for the first time...

My manager was quite unhappy, and of course, I am to be blamed >.<

Oh yea, I was late for work today because of Actuarial Evening, which is one of the reason I never regretted enrolling in Drake. Actuarial Evening is an internship and full-time recruitment program specially for Drake students. Of course, getting an internship or full-time job here is very competitive. But, it's a very good learning experience.

Ooh ooh, I got my free financial calculator already. Thanks to CIGNA! The financial calculator, BA II Plus will cost RM150 and I got it for free!!! =D

Tear Me Apart

I wonder have you ever kept all your problems to yourself?

And your problems keep bulding and building until they reach the peak.

Something within you just snap.

You do something out of your norm.

For me, I just cried and cried so badly, until my sob almost tear me apart. I just cried and cried to sleep.

It was embarassing of course, but this is just me, who cry her problems away.

Piling Up

Good new is, I have gotten myself a job. I am working as a monitor in Bell Center. Not too bad, consider I am working only a few hours per week. So there is extra pocket money for me to spend save. And the coordinator, Kate is her name, is a super nice person. =D

Bad new is, my work is piling up like nobody's business. I have 2 tests next week, Finance and Marketing. I have never really liked this 2 subs. Finance is still OK, but Marketing, the lecturer is a nice man, with thick British accent, but he is just plain boring. I slept a few times in his class. I wonder if anyone saw that.

I am taking P paper this November. I have not started anything yet. I can hear the P manual calling me and I am ignoring it! Goshhh, I am useless...

crazy weather

Gahhhhh...

Weather in Des Moines is really unpredictable.

It was really cold yesterday. But, but, it was so hot during the day today!!!

Silly me who wore a sweater and was sweating under it. And I had to to walk to US Bank, which is 6 streets away.

Crazy weather.

Gahhhhh...>.<

Drake Part 2

this is my 6th day in Drake.

orientation was held on wednesday. it was fun. i got to know some other international students better, thanks to the games. there were a lot of international students, around 100 of us. and 38 are from malaysia. the best part is, 99% malaysians are doind actuarial science, which is what i am doing also. at times, part of me wanted to change major. but, there are too many things to consider if i want to do so. i decided to stick with what i am doing right now, and put a little more effort in it. gahhhh, hope it works.

after orientation, we had some welcome weekend activities. honestly, i skipped a lot of the activities because i stayed in my room, a lot. but i did go for some of the activities and it was fun. i want to elaborate more of this, but sadly i did not have any pictures.


actually, des moines is a very quiet and peaceful place, as well as a boring place. it is hard to find some entertainment in des moines. most of the time, i had to rely on my friend who lives nearby to give us a lift to places. we went to places like walmart(super big and quite cheap), jordan creek(i think the nicest shopping complex in iowa. i bought an ipod there and nearly, a nike running shoe) and hyvee(i went yesterday to buy some chicken and vege to make curry chicken and ginseng chicken soup, and thank god, it turned out well. of course, i wasn't the chef but at least, i helped in the rice and some cutting job. damn proud wehy. =D).

i didn't take much pictures but luckily, rachel did. i will just ask her for some nice pictures that she took around des moines later. hehehe, so stay tune...

Destination : Drake University, Des Moines, Iowa, US(Part 1)

i am in Drake University, Des Moines(pronouce as the-moi, i think this is French gua), Iowa already. =D

life here is very different. imagine in kl, you can see malays, chinese and indians everywhere. here in des moines, you can seldom see them. if yes, i can see chinese students, some indians students and very few malay students. at times, i thought i am in an alien planet or what.

the weather here is quite unpredictable. in the morning, it can be very windy. in the afternoon, it is always hot and a little humid. and it just rained yesterday at night. crazy weather, right? still, i can't wait for fall and winter, eventhough some seniors told be they hated winter so much. but, at least i can have something to hope for.

ok la, that's all for part 1. i shall save some interesting stories for part 2. i will try to take some beautiful pictures of Drake and post it here later. take care. =D

p.s. i miss my family and friends so much.

Farewell

to my dearest readers,

yupe, i am leaving tomorrow morning. i am not going to be long-winded this time. =D

i just want to wish all of you, including my family, friends and you, my readers all the best. i am sure we will of course meet again someday.

to my better future, i say farewell and good day!!! =D

sincerely,
caroline

To You

To my dearest friend Elle,
There are thing I would like to tell,
Remember to ring my cell,
To you I say farewell.

To my dearest friend Lynda,
Who is going to Indiana,
Remember to miss me la =D,
To you I say au revoir.

I just sent them off today. Pretty emo. But the thing is, we didn't cry. Because we know, someday and somewhere in US, we are going to meet again. Goodbye, friends! =D

At This Moment

Listening to songs,
Staring at the wall.
I saw you,
Smiling back at me.

Lying on bed,
Reading a book.
I heard you,
Whispering in my ears.

Sipping coffee,
Looking out of the window.
I saw rain,
Pouring down like tears in my eyes.

Looking back at those days,
Thinking of you.
I said to myself,
Will you ever think of me too?

*This post is for entertainment purposes only. =D