emo post

why oh why? why am i so blind?

you know, i made a major mistake today. oh wait, no. i actually made it since a few days ago. i can only pray that the mistake did not lead to some unwanted consequences. >.<

i don't know la. i think i am not capable enough to hold any post. currently, i am holding a few posts. but, i did not do my part well in those posts. reasons are, i am not good enough and i don't have enought time.

compared to my past experience, i have definitely grown and learnt a lot during these years. but still not good enough. and the reason i survived through the past was because of my dearests friends. during high school, i am lucky enough to have friends like wai fon, chung, ade and ai-lynn(though i don't really know ai-lynn that well until form 5 =D). they seriously helped me a lot whenever i need them. and now, i have some 'kaki's like michelle, rachel and lynda. they were always the one who helped me when i ran out of ideas or when i broke down. therefore, i would like to take this opportunity to express my gratitude to these people. =D

today is supposed to be a good day. but then, thanks to a lecturer of mine, i had a tough afternoon. imagine this, few days ago, you told your lecturer an idea for a project. and he applauded it for being good. and then, you showed him your project a few days later. he looked at you and asked you what was that. you were stunned. can imagine that? yupe, that's what happened to me. well, i guess it was my fault for not consulting him enough. *sigh*

i just wish there is someone for me to complain to. someone who can tahan when i emo. and someone who can tell me that everything's going to be okay. aiyor, don't need to be a guy la. i prefer a girl friend because only girls can understand girls. i am seriously very stressed. a lot of due dates have to be met. and i am just so lazy!