Tear Me Apart

I wonder have you ever kept all your problems to yourself?

And your problems keep bulding and building until they reach the peak.

Something within you just snap.

You do something out of your norm.

For me, I just cried and cried so badly, until my sob almost tear me apart. I just cried and cried to sleep.

It was embarassing of course, but this is just me, who cry her problems away.

crazy weather

Gahhhhh...

Weather in Des Moines is really unpredictable.

It was really cold yesterday. But, but, it was so hot during the day today!!!

Silly me who wore a sweater and was sweating under it. And I had to to walk to US Bank, which is 6 streets away.

Crazy weather.

Gahhhhh...>.<

just a random tag

*paiseh la, never thought of translating the questions. so here is an editted version, hope to make things clear and no more confusions. =D

saw this in jocelyn's blog. decided to give it a try. here's the outcome, pretty hilarious, i tell you...

TAG
1. 把 music player 放在 shuffle mode. (put your mp3 player in in shuffle mode.)
2. 在每一个问题, 安 forward 来得不同的歌曲. (for each question, press 'next' or 'forward' to get the next song.)
3. 用歌名来回答问题, 虽然有时会没道理, 可是别偷鸡摸狗噢! (use the song to answer each question. though ridiculous at time, no cheating! =D)
4. 有了答案, 就给自己的意见, 关于歌名与问题的搭配. (write down your own thoughts according to the question and song's title.)
5. Tag 五个朋友. (and lastly, tag 5 friends.)

今天是怎样的心情? (How's your feeling today?)
Stacie Orrico - I'm Not Missing You
(I am missing everyone everyday. >.<)

在这生命里, 你会飞的远吗? (In life, will you soar?)
Lee Hom - Di Yi Ge Qing Cheng (First Dawn)
(Huh? Only can fly in the dawn)

你的朋友怎么样看待你? (What do your friends think of you?)
Courtney J - Can't Behave
(I am innocent)

你会结婚吗? (Will you marry?)
Jack Johnson - Constellations
(Mysterious-nyer)

你的最好朋友的主题曲是什么? (What's your best friend's theme song?)
Lee Hom - Yi Shou Jian Dan De Ge (A Simple Song)
(Yea, our theme song is just a simple song)

你生命的故事是什么? (What the story of your life?)
Anson Hu - Wo De Wei Lai Bu Shi Meng (My Future Is Not A Dream)
(Not a dream? Which means my dream will come true? =D)

你的高中是怎么样过的? (How's your high school?)
Jesse McCartney - Beautiful Soul
(True, I met a lot of beautiful souls)

在生命中, 你是怎么样往前走? (In life, how do you move forward?)
Ace Young - Butterflies
(Errrr, which mean I fly?)

你的朋友们最好的优点是什么? (What's your friends' best quality?)
Fort Minor - Where'd You Go
(Tough, tough...)

这周末会怎样? (How's your weekend?)
Peter Caleigh - Reach
(Yupe, I need to reach somewhere this weekend)

说说你的公公和婆婆 (Tell us a little about your grandparents.)
John Denver - Today
(*Cries*)

你的生活过得怎样? (How's your life?)
Lee Hom - Zai Mei Bian
(Wahh, so complicated meh?)

在你的葬礼, 他们会播放什么歌? (What song will they play in your funeral?)
Juanes - Para Tu Amor
(Aiyor, so sad)

世界怎么看待你呢? (How does the world see you?)
Frankie J - More Than Words
(Haih, no need to say anything la)

你会有个快乐的生活吗? (Will you have a happy life ahead?)
James Blunt - Cry
(OMG, I must have a sad life ahead >.<)

你的朋友们真的是怎样看待你的呢? (Your friends see you as...)
Lee Hom - Wei Yi
(Flattered kau-kau =D)

有人暗暗的为你着迷吗? (Any secret admirer?)
Jewel - I Love You Always Forever
(Wahhh, scarry...)

你是怎样让自己更快乐的? (How do you make yourself happy?)
Greenday - Wake Me Up When September Ends
(Huh? Will be happy if wake up when september ends?)

你应该在你的生活中做些什么? (What should you do in life?)
Ferhad - Katakan Saja
(Hmmm, cannot la, later people say that I have more saliva than tea)

你会有孩子吗? (Any kids in the future?)
James Blunt - You're Beautiful
(Errrr, my children will be beautiful?)

你应该在那一首歌跳钢管舞呢? (Which song should you pole dance?)
Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On
(Gahhhh, so slow, how to dance?)

你妈妈怎么看待你呢? (Your mum sees you as...)
Jasan Mraz - Geek In The Pink
(Mum will not say that I'm a geek!)

你的生活中敌人的主题曲? (Your rival's theme song)
Teddy Geiger - Rockin' Right Here
(Errr, too much, right)

你的人品格是如何的呢? (Your personal quality?)
Lee Hom - JULIA
(Sadly, my name is Caroline and not Julia! >.<)

你的婚礼会播放什么歌曲? (What song should be played in your wedding?)
Lin Jun Jie - Sa Rang Hae Yo
(Ahhhhh, nice nice...)

你的未来的伴侣会是怎样的呢? (How's your future soul mate?)
High School Musical - What I've Been Looking For
(Hopefully, he is what I've been looking for =D)

幸福的定义是什么? (What's the happiness?)
Lee Hom - Kiss Goodbye
(What? Happiness is kiss goodbye? Don't want!)

TAG : Michelle, Jaclyn, and I don't know who else read my bloggie.

i did badly for econs test! >.<

how la? i dun feel like studying now... =(

iec...iec...

why make my life so miserable?

sorry, just feel like being emo for once...

just ignore me... :(

i am bored. i am doing the same things over and over again everyday.

i am stressed. i have a lot of things to do. i just don't know where to start.

i am an idiot. i tend to do things before thinking. in the end, i mess up things badly.

i am lonely. at times, when i need someone, i realize there is no one.

i am clueless. i have no idea when others are taking the initiative to know me better.

i am NOT PERFECT! as much as i am trying to, in the end, i suffered because i can never be one!

please forgive me for the mistakes i have done in the past.

please understand that i am only human.

please give me the courage to walk until the end of my life.

-end-

happy chinese new year

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE OUT THERE!!!

May all of you are blessed with good fortune, health, wealth, prosperity, love and looks in the year of oink oink...

I will be back soon...=D

60 seconds post...

04/06/06
Song of the day - Lee Ryan When I think of you

Ready, set, go...

It's 60 seconds post and I have to be really really really fast. Seriously, 60 seconds are not enough.

Damn no life??? Yea, I know. But I have to be no life sometimes. That's life. Alright, I am talking nonsense.

My 60 seconds is nearly up. Will update again soon. Yupe, soon. I don't know how soon is soon, but yeah, SOON. Adios!!!

Fingers down,
11.36 pm

pre-entry...

Ok, I know I have not been updated since like berkurun-kurun lamanyer, so yeah, should at least scribble something, hehe.

I am not going to be berpanjang lebar since it's quite late now and my beloved bed is waiting for me. Actually, there's absolutely no need to type this now as I'll be typing a longer post tomorrow. But, maklumlah, my fingers are very itchy and I don't want to garu it. So, have to type to ease the itchiness. That serve the purpose of calling this entry a pre-entry, my point is, IT SERVE A PURPOSE, that's all.

Nothing much I can talk about. I started my 2nd semester with a bunch of subjects, hmmmm, 5 subs actually. So far so good, but in the future, errrrr, I can't guarantee anything. Calculus being my favourite subject, because of the lecturer, love ya Ms Shanta. So far no homework yet, I think lecturers are waiting for the right time when everyone starts to get busy then only they give. Usually when they give assignments, they'll give like together or the deadlines are almost the same date. Sometimes I even suspect them having a meeting to discuss about deadlines amongst each other. Hmmmm, maybe, I don't know.

I think I'll be doing a serious entry tomorrow, hope I have time to. Please pray for me as I have like 8 hours lectures straight, WTH right, I know, poor me. I seriously can hear my bed, my bantal, my bolster and my teddies calling me, ok perhaps I am just hallucinating, but that means I have good imagination okay??? That's all for now, will write again tomorrow. =D

Fingers down,
11.27pm

Debut-ed...

The thing is, I've been changing the blogskin for so many many frigging times. And yet, I'm lazy to move my fingers and just type. I had this blog like...let me count, 2 months ago, but then... Okok, the point is, I AM LAZY.

Back to the title, Debut-ed, means I am going to write a debut entry which i am supposed to write months ago. Thus, here goes...

Helloooooooooooo everyone!!! Finally, I have time to write my first ever entry for this blog. Well, I had a blog a couple of years ago, so this is not really my first blog. But I never really update. Therefore, I stop updating my previous blog. Probably you would be wondering the reasons why I start to blog again. Well, I don't know. I just feel like having one and I don't have any reason to have a blog.

I just finished my final examinations last week. I kinda did badly in all my papers. Plus I was sick, literally. Having flu and sitting for Calculus paper is NO FUN at all. Just imagine you have to squeeze your brain juice as hard as you can to do Maths equation and constantly sedut balik your mukus into your nose as quietly as possible at the same time, the feeling can kill I tell you. But luckily, I did all my papers. I seriously don't know what would happen to my CGPA. Perhaps I might flunk it. I have not a single idea.

Just two days ago, I had my driving test. Hoohoo, I'm a legal driver now, but still have to wait for my license to be an official legal driver. To be honest, waiting to be tested was a torture. Let me tell you my story. I arrived at the JSP testing centre around 9 something. Then I have to queued for like half an hour under the hot sun to get my number. After that, I waited until 1 o'clock for the parking test. Slope, parking and 3-point turn was alright I guess. Then, I waited for another 3 hours for the on the road test. On the road was rather horrifying but it turned out fine. When I finally got everything done, it was already 5 o'clock. So menyeksakan man I tell you. But, I am beyond being happy now because I can finally drive.

I am having my 2 weeks semester break now. I seriously don't know how to spend my holiday. Sleep and eat would be my main activities I guess. After my sem break, I would be super uber fat, SHOT! But anyhow, holiday is better than nothing. After this 2 weeks, I have to start my new semester already and I might not even have time for a break.

Alright, I guess I have to stop here. I am currently watching American Idol now. Can't wait to know who will be eliminated this time. Ok, till then see you next time. Take care. Adios!

Fingers down,
5.25 pm
Caroline