piece of dead meat

i am super tired.

i want to sleep and sleep and sleep like pig.

discover and aup ball were over.

i felt so relief.

a few more assignments and tests and quizzes to go.

i have impromptu speech on thursday, nervous.

less than a month till the day i am leaving malaysia.

end.

goodbye iec

i can't believe that today is the last day of iec. iec has offiicially stepped down and the intima room nows belong to 32nd intima excos.

i have not been so attached to a club/society before. furthermore, iec is not just any ordinary club/society. it is actually called the independent election commission to help in assisting the election of the 32nd excos. and mr. tan wei cai was the chairperson of 32nd iec.

i had a lot of fun in iec. not to mention, i had a lot of bad times in iec too. but, i think i will remember those good times we had in iec the most, especially wei cai's lameness. =D

i actually got to know some members better. iec changed my view towards some members who gave me bad first impression. after knowing them, i learnt that i can't really judge a book by its cover.

iec is ending after today. i am actually proud to say that i was an ex-iec member. goodbye 32nd iec! =(

shoot me or kill myself

i am so dead if i am unable to sell all aup ball tickets within these 4 days. so someone just kill me now because i am quite sure i won't be able to do it. seriously, i will take the responsibility on my shoulder and i will be the one to be blamed. that's so not funny.

the thing is, we really can't trust one's word, especially if one says one will get things done soon or trust one to do things. i am not trying to pinpoint anyone here. i am just trying to tell the fact.

my team and i started off well, with huge amount of bookings and with promises that sounded so good. when some started to ffk, things are not that nice anymore. some started to show me apologetic look with a million of apologies(exegerating again), which i think i still can accept. some didn't even tell me and acted cool, wth. some didn't even remember their promises, double wth. i am still being extremely patient.

my team and i then busied ourselves with other stuff, as we not only have one task. yupe, we remember taking the responsibility and we tried not to break our promises. in the end, we managed to come out with something different. see, we remember our promises. it is not that hard. it just needs a little of our heart, passion, time and commitment, which i am sure most people can offer. can you?

i still remember being in iec,when i almost met dead end when looking for candidates. it was iec members who helped me through the obstacles by promoting and finding candidates too. how i wish the same thing will happen here. i just need a miracle, a miracle to sell off all tickets!

sorry if i sounded a bit offensive, but i was just telling the truth. i might be the nice person you think i am. and at times, i think i am nice too. but i am just so annoyed now, with all these excuses. just put yourself in my situation, can you still smile your huge smile and be nice to everyone? the answer is no, i am positively 100% sure. so, i can't be nice anymore! and the best part is, i don't even care!

i can't believe i sounded so frustrated in here. i need a break. i need a shoulder to cry on. i need to pray for a miracle. i need a place to release the inner me. i need...YOU, my dearest friends!!! *hearts breaking into million pieces and sobbing inside.*

leaving

mum and dad have been very patient with me nowadays. i made a huge mistake on friday by not telling dad something important. my dad ended up calling me 7 times without me realizing. you must be thinking i am such a bad daughter. on the contrary, i have been trying very very hard to be a a good one. it just that at times when i do work, i am really into it and have no room for other things. in the end, my dad just let me off without having me giving any explanation.

i know my mum and dad are really nice to me mainly because i am leaving soon. the thought of leaving them, my family my friends always bring tears to my eyes.

to imagine myself in a land few thousand miles away from my hometown here in malaysia, i can feel the loneliness now. of course, i have a bunch of friends over there. but things will be so different there than what i thought it will be. yesterday, as i was chatting with one of my friends, this friend of mine asked me what do expect in america? i can barely answer the question. i just said i don't know what to expect. please tell me, what can i expect in the stranger land?

dearest readers,

please appreciate what you have. do things like there is no tomorrow, but only today, as today is present, a gift you must really appreciate because there is no 2 similiar todays.

i shall bid you farewell and good night.

13th the friday

ok, i know it's supposed to be friday the 13th. just trying to make things more interesting here.

instead of saying lemony's snicket's a series of unfortunate events, i should change it to friday the 13th's a series of unfortunate events.

so many things happened in just one day. it feels like i just went through 1 week. just exegerating.

i don't feel like blogging now. if you want to know more, read her and her blogs.

so long, farewell, dearest readers.

busy week ahead

dear readers,

sorry for the lack of entries. i was busy with some of the events. and and discover is in 2 more weeks time!

i will not be updating much starting from tomorrow until the end of the semester. for your information, i have a public speaking speech next monday. hmmmm, i won't disclose the topic for my speech until next monday. you just have to wait and see. =D and i have my stats test 2 next wed. i am so not prepared. so voila, there goes my weekend. =(

is it very weird nowdays for not having a bf? because when i told people that i don't have one and not looking for one, they didn't believe it. more outrageously, some even guessed that i am a les. aiyor, which part of me tells you that i am les la? except the part that i am big and fat and ugly(i just have to add this part in =D), every milimetre of me tells you that i am straight. yesh, and i am seriously telling you that i am STRAIGHT, 101%! oh gawd, i cannot believe that people actually think that i am les. i ought to get a bf soon(nahhh, just joking, too troublesome). gahhhhhhhhhhhh...

good night people and until we meet again...

i got room in drake!

beloved readers,

i just got my room and roommate assignment! i never thought i will know until mid july. but yeah, i am excited.

well, according to blueView(sounds pretty high tech, huh? but quite hard to navigate for a beginner like me. yeah, call me noob if you want to. >.<), i got a room in GK(according to some seniors, gk is one of the best dorm) and guess who's my roomies? hahahahhahah, non other than one of the kaki's, ms. rachel yong and a girl from ipoh. the best part is, we are all from malaysia. =D

i am floating in the air right now. reasons being, i opted for gk as my first choice and i got it. and i chose rachel to be my roomie. and i got it too. can't wait to tell rachel tomorrow. weeeeeeeee...

on the other hand, volleyball training is cancelled tomorrow and on the following tuesday due to some events. i am most looking forward to tuesday every week because of volleyball. and for 2 weeks, i have nothing to anticipate anymore. that's sad...