shoot me or kill myself

i am so dead if i am unable to sell all aup ball tickets within these 4 days. so someone just kill me now because i am quite sure i won't be able to do it. seriously, i will take the responsibility on my shoulder and i will be the one to be blamed. that's so not funny.

the thing is, we really can't trust one's word, especially if one says one will get things done soon or trust one to do things. i am not trying to pinpoint anyone here. i am just trying to tell the fact.

my team and i started off well, with huge amount of bookings and with promises that sounded so good. when some started to ffk, things are not that nice anymore. some started to show me apologetic look with a million of apologies(exegerating again), which i think i still can accept. some didn't even tell me and acted cool, wth. some didn't even remember their promises, double wth. i am still being extremely patient.

my team and i then busied ourselves with other stuff, as we not only have one task. yupe, we remember taking the responsibility and we tried not to break our promises. in the end, we managed to come out with something different. see, we remember our promises. it is not that hard. it just needs a little of our heart, passion, time and commitment, which i am sure most people can offer. can you?

i still remember being in iec,when i almost met dead end when looking for candidates. it was iec members who helped me through the obstacles by promoting and finding candidates too. how i wish the same thing will happen here. i just need a miracle, a miracle to sell off all tickets!

sorry if i sounded a bit offensive, but i was just telling the truth. i might be the nice person you think i am. and at times, i think i am nice too. but i am just so annoyed now, with all these excuses. just put yourself in my situation, can you still smile your huge smile and be nice to everyone? the answer is no, i am positively 100% sure. so, i can't be nice anymore! and the best part is, i don't even care!

i can't believe i sounded so frustrated in here. i need a break. i need a shoulder to cry on. i need to pray for a miracle. i need a place to release the inner me. i need...YOU, my dearest friends!!! *hearts breaking into million pieces and sobbing inside.*